Happy birthday Singapore but it just not my day.

Janelle first national day. And I planned a full day events for her. But now then I realised that I'm such a |<€¥¥*+% mom who never thought if Janelle can cope anot. Or things just not as I planned

My plans
1. Go back to mama place early morning to help mom on blood test.
=> bil maid came over n distrub my plan. My lazy maid trying to act smart and get kogan n myself pissed off. Haiz. Ended up I was very late and my mom break fast and can't take the blood test.

2. Fidgets
=> too late to put Janelle down for morning nap ended up she only had a very short nap. By the time we reached fidgets she fall asleep. Wasted my efforts. We went home without any play or exercise.

3. My bil place celebrating Kogan nephew birthday
=> she was very cranky. And we chop chop finish our dinner and return home.

After we reached home, I cleaned her up n settled her down for night sleep. Haiz. And she had fits again and keep waking up from sleep every min. I was very tired hoping to catch a short nap. But because of her I was fully awake with lots of gulity, angry, disappointment. I have to face these myself...

Now I wish to have beer to get myself drunk. Don't wish to face her.

Haiz. Kogan see me so upset n he asked me why. Keep asking me and I tell him a bit. In the end, he is affected and now he went out for a drink. He know his health. He should not drink. These just make me more gulity, more angry and more dusappointed


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