Key Collection...

30th December 2009, Wednesday

This morning, my MIL approached me and told us to move out... she don't want us to stay with her anymore.. And this marked and firmed out all the thoughts... WE ARE MOVING TO PUNGGOL

Noon time, we went for our key collection... finally.. collected the keys..

Procedure of key collection:

Items to bring:
a) bank passbook to settle some stuffs that will deducted thru GIRO
b) both ur ICs and
c) appointment letter
d) marriage cert

e) child birth cert

1) go to HDB level 2 to apply for Fire Insurance ($7 plus); we spent another $350 for 5 years comprehensive fire insurance.

2) go to HDB level 1's register counter for the Q numbers; and wait for the number to be called

3) in the room, you will sign sign and sign all the legal documents; decide how long to settle the loan, what is the % from both CPF, etc

4) go to HDB level 3 to make payment for conservancy charges abt 50+

5) go to HDB level 2 to apply for Singapore Power

6) go back to level 1 to return the receipt of (4) to the officer..

all will be done within 1hr...

We popped by punggol but didnt open the door as we are waiting for a good timing... so need to wait till tmr. :) *ren* we went to our shortlisted contractor chu from coos design for re-quotation for the renovation.. from renting out quotation 6K to moving in quotation 16K... it is additional 10K more.. wah...

we plan to do up

- grill for all windows

- add on a sliding windows to the service yard

- kitchen cabinet

- sliding tempered glass door for kitchen

- master bedroom and study room wardrobe

- false ceiling

- air con

The next one month we will be super busy and hopefully will be done before chinese new year..

MIL in action again...

28th December 2009, Tuesday..

No idea what happened to my MIL again.. haiz... my fear happens..

I was playing with janelle in the living room... and janelle went on high kneeing position and throw herself towards me.. i make way for janelle to have more space to do so.. MIL sitting on the sofa watching TV and she shouted -

MIL: Dont move your leg... let her climb on you...
ME: *ignore* and continue to play with Janelle
MIL: tell you dont move your leg and let her climb..
ME: *piss* she want to be on her knees and i'm making way for her..
HUS: ai ya, you watch your TV, dont need to give your commands to them.. let them play on their own
MIL: started to scream and shout again... all the woo ahhh again..
"you dont want to talk to me" ... "dont want to take care of janelle.. "
bah bah bah.. i also cant remember much... then my fear of words come out from her mouth.. "you all move out and dont let me see you then i will not says anything"
haiz, i knew it will happens and it is just a matter of time..
HUS: if you really want us to move out, u just say.. we can move out next month..
MIL went silent...


in the night, she complaint to SIL over the phone while we are in the room, she complained that we never take care of her... never ask her for dinner, never care of her, stay with son and dil always not happy, etc etc.. i overheard it and i went to kogan... let's move out...

And as today decision is to move out to punggol.. i dont mind to take care of janelle myself.. to help in house work and spent more time with janelle... then mentally torture by them..

EPIC is not suitable for Janelle??

29th Decemeber 2009, Tuesday

23rd Dec, we had an appointment with KKH social worker for an interview for Janelle to attend the special school.. dont ask me why need to meet up with the social worker.. they dont have much details of what the school does, if janelle suitable anot, just asked us how we cope... My reply is "till now i cant cope, and i cant accept what had happens to janelle but do i have a choice??" she remain silent. maybe i find it is a waste of time for this interview and they arent flexible enough for appointment rearrangement and i had to wait 1.5 months for this interview., so wasnt very friendly to them.. however, she mentioned she will proceed to refer janelle to epic which is refer us to another org to refer us to epic... the whole process will takes about 3 motnhs, and we requested to push for january intake.. i really hope janelle can have much more improvement before CNY.

29th Dec, she called and says doc is not referring to epic for janelle however he refer janelle to IPPC (childcare for special needs) but this is only for children above 2.. and EPIC is only for more severe patients. so what does that means?? i get them go ahead with 2 programs if possible. if not, no choice lo...

Merry Christmas !!!

Key Collection

21st december 2009, monday

after waiting for 3 years and 10 months, our flat is ready for key collection on 30 december 2009.

Sentosa

20th december 2009, sunday

During our way down to tuina, maid told me that my sis bringing 3Js to sentosa in the morning..

after tuina, seeing such a great weather and decided to pop by sentosa to join them and also for janelle to have a feel of sand and water.. :) although it is short one hr at tbe beach but it was great fun.... we will be back..

Meimei - Joelle

Guess you guys had see me blogging about Joelle... but wondering why her and not the other 2?

Let me tell you the story of Joelle, when Joelle is 18 months, she had virus inflection in her blood and causes non-stop of high fever, fever fit and she went into comma for a week which resulted meningitis... our family tears so much for her when she seeing her in ICU.. she stayed in hospital for about 1month, and only starts to recover after blood transplant. upon discharge, she lost her ability to walk, talk, sit and she had a brain damage of 40%.

today, about 2 years later.. she is back to normal.. she recovered very well.. all her development are back... very smart now.. we have been very proud of her.. she is very strong, and we had been through alot with her...

now, she is 3.5 years old.. she can read a story book to Janelle, teach my dad on how to use iphone, when she watched DVD she will cry with luo jia lang and hu xing er, she will come to us covered her mouth and says softly "i tell you a secret", asking me lots of "what is this?", copying how her grandma run to make us laugh, argue with me that i'm not mummy.. janelle to call me gugu... and ask me to call my mom "ah ma" cos only her mama is mummy... and definitely lots more of joy she had brought to the family. it is an endless list.. but just the few above can tell you she is cute right??

and she is our Joelle:

A Question from my niece and nephew which i dont know how to answer

18th December 2009, Friday

My niece and nephew asked -

Joey: 姑姑, why baby still dont know how to walk?
Joseph: ya lo, 姑姑, why you DONT WANT to let baby learn how to walk??
Me: remain silent.. **thinking of best answer**
Joey: mummy's friend baby who is same age with janelle is now walking an running already....
Me: really??
Joseph: yes, she can even talk.. why you dont let baby learn??
Me: cos baby janelle is sick, so she is abit slower than normal kids.
Joey: but you see, meimei also sick when she is young, but she can walk and talk when 2 yr old..
Me: Maybe 姑姑 not doing a good job.. can you guys help 姑姑... help 姑姑to teach Janelle how to walk and talk??

I really dont know how to answer them... and this is not the first time they asked me this...

Follow up with KKH

18th December 2009, Friday

Yesterday we went back to KKH neurology for monthly follow up.

As usually, to up Janelle's drug dosage again as she still having seizure. But from Nov's once every 3 days to once ever week after introduce tuina to her.

According to doc, Eplim max dosage is at 7ml for janelle and she is now still at 3ml, so still got room for up the dosage. however, the other 2 drug she is having - nitrazepam and carbazepine had hit the max dosage. and if eplim hit the max dosage and she still having seizure, then have to add on the 4th drug... very sad right.. the more drug she takes, the more harmful it will be.

Before i went off, i checked with him regarding about stem cells treatment. His answer is NO. the reason is the technology still new, and it had not proven it is a solution for epilepsy. and he has oversea patients who had tried this and the treatment was failed. It seems to make the seizure worst and the cells had developed into something else in the brain. so, not for now.

tired....

15 December 2009, Tuesday

Woke up by Janelle at 140am... not able to fall back to sleep till 4am.. keep having bad dreams.. goodness seek.. am so tired now..

my xmas wish for this year will be
1. Janelle's health, no more seizure and no need to be on mediciation.
2. Janelle to caught up with her development, be able to walk and communicate with us

now i cant watch shows on those adnormal people, i will gets very worried for Janelle.. my thoughts will go wild.. at times, i will perfer to stay in my own world, not to see other toddlers, not to compare.. can we? almaka, all because of the charity shows la... need to forget abt that man..

Xmas gathering with Aug 2008 Babies

14th December 2009, Sunday

Night time she gave me headache, she didnt sleep well.. From 1am to 2am, she was tossing non-stop and cry once pacificer dropped off. Mummy woke up and pat her sleep till 2.30am.. At 530am, she woke up. hmm, playfully little girl, she refused to sleep so daddy throw her out of the room.. heeee, and let the maid to take care of her while he went back to sleep.. Leaving her alone with maid in the morning, where she needs to do housework, i believe she wouldnt be able to take care.. so mummy forced to wake up and feed jx breakfast and mop mop her.. she plays till 10am then back to sleep.. and she only woke up at 2pm..

We have a xmas party from 11am to 3pm, by the time we reached there, it was already 230pm, and they were wrapping up and sending the guests off. I know we are very late, however Mummy still decided to drop by just to collect Janelle's xmas gift. Paid $12 for this:




After the gathering, we went off to amk hub and grab some xmas presents.. and back to my mummy's place.

Just when my father and mama returned from my brother's ex-girlfriend wedding lunch, errr.. abit weird right.. father take her as god-daugther and she invited them, so he went... when he returned from the lunch, he was telling us that too bad, bro and her have no fate and lucky was not my bro do wrong to her which causes this break off, else my father dont know how to face her relatives who he found that most of her relatives are his long-known friends. they used to stayed nearby.. the world is so small.

Desert @ Chong Pang

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Xmas is coming

13 December 2009, Sunday

I used to love xmas, where i will went out shopping for xmas gift for my close friends... it was great.. and usually damage is huge but is happy...

but since i have janelle, xmas to me is just another day.. cant bring her out to squeeze with the crowds. and xmas shopping turns out to be a how?? to be.. this year, my xmas shopping are all online... brought A and J gift online and plus some DIY. company xmas party on this thursday and with a budget of $20, really dont know what to get... let me see if i have time to go shopping later..

Later in the noon time, me and janelle are going for a xmas gathering with 50+ aug 2008's babies... i'm giving a second tots of whether to go or not.. hmmm... i believe all aug babies now should be able to walk and run, but janelle..... haiz, mummy's feel so negative today.. maybe drop by to collect janelle xmas gift and went off shopping bah...

I still got need to get:

1. mommy's birthday present

2. dear's xmas present

3. co's xmas present

4. a xmas present for myself and janelle

mummy is so fat now.... working from home really kills me... the most i walk 50 steps a day... and the rest of day is seating there in the chair.. my tummy now is as when i'm 5 mths pregnant.. hmm.. thinking to go and get a slimming gel and uzip to zip off those fats before CNY.

Cant stand it anymore

07 December 2009, Monday

Dont know what happened to my MIL... Everthing we do is wrong.. everything we do she will nag and nag... Only things she do she right... what she knows taking care of kids are only shit, eat and sleep. When her play time, she put janelle on the floor and she watched TV.

Maid wanted to play with janelle, teach her standing up... kanna my MIL scolded..
Maid wanted to let her seat on the rented toys.. kanna my MIL scolded..
Maid brought janelle into my study room and play toys.. kanna my MIL scolded..
Maid brought janelle into my bedroom, kanna my MIL scolded
When Janelle ah ah ah for nothing, MIL outside shout "Give su su, give su su" (susu means milk in malay)

She had never give a second thoughts on what time is her meal time, what time is her play time.. to her, ah ah ah means milk/sleep.. haiz

I wanted to take some time off my work, so i went and play with Janelle... I let janelle plays on her bed and let her reached out with toys far away... at times she will fall and roll over, but on the bed, no pain... at first we played very happy, and tried putting the toys further and further away.. and when she out of reach, she starts to cry for help... i was there encouraging janelle to reach out. my maid kanna scolded by MIL again as maid was with me in the room.. and she went shouting to bring janelle outside to her in malay to my maid... and she ignored cos i was in the room.. Janelle was there still crying for help (no tears, just ah ah ah) MIL run to the room and scolded both maid and myself for let janelle inside.. pianz, i so angry and shouted back, "You have no idea what happened and you keep scolding. I am trying to let her reached out for her own toys... she cant reached that's why she cried.." she walked away and scolded my maid for letting janelle in the room and ask her to bring janelle out... away from me..

I'm very angry... but dont want to quarrel with her.. i let her handled with janelle and i went back to work.. then she scolded janelle when she was there ah ah and want my MIl to bring toys to her... 15 min later, i heard another scolding from her to janelle, i went out and carry janelle away from her without saying a single word and back into our room with the door closed and locked.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY

** Family Day **

05 December 2009, Saturday

Morning: @ my mama place, my gugu went back because she want to collect something with me.. hmmm.. there goes my show.. and hus wash and max the car for 2 hrs... before the rain starts to pour and he gave up.

Noon: @ Mygym, brought Joelle with me today. As she started crying non stop when her mummy went out without her.. in order to calm her down, my mom told her that later 姑姑 (me) will bring her to mygym with Janelle and indeed she stop crying.. but i have never mentioned a word. is my mom promise her, in order to fulfill my mom promise, we brought her along.

Afternoon: @ home and sleep

Late Afternoon: @SSC's giant

Evening: @ bil's place, Janelle enjoyed the accompany with her uncle and 2nd brother. She was playing and laughing with them while my maid was there.. "late already, go home.. go home" as a result, she was got scolded from my mil again.. haaa.. my mil always want me to bring janelle to my bil's place, and to let janelle have a better sleep there, she forked out her pocket money to installed air con for them. well, maybe when janelle gets better, will bring her over for dinner more often.

Night: return home and spent some time with Janelle for exercise and massage before she went to bed.

It was a nice and great spent saturday.. and am very glad that janelle can accept it.

How to stop cough in 5 minutes!!!

Saw this from forum, think is good to note it down for Just in case use.

How to stop cough in 5 minutes!!!

This is a must try.... We have all been kept awake by our own or someone else's cough.

The tip and not the cough. ANYTHING is! better than antibiotics.

Even babies could benefit from this and the parents wouldn't worry about the safety of their child. And of course, it is harmless and free from any type of side-effects.

It works 100 percent of the time, although the scientists at the Canada Research council (who discovered it) aren't sure why.

Treatment: To stop night time coughing in a child (or an adult, as! we found out personally), put Vicks Vapor Rub generously on the bottom of the feet at bedtime and then cover with socks.

Even persistent, heavy, deep coughing will stop in about five minutes and stay stopped for many, many hours of relief. This works 100 percent of the time, and is more effective in children than even very strong prescription cough medicines. In addition it is extremely soothing and comforting and they will sleep soundly.

To rent a toy

considering to rent Bright Starts Tropical Fun Around We Go Activity Station for janelle.

Not sure how to rent and from where... dear reader, any idea??

Found:

http://www.mygrowingtoys.com/; renting for a month at $53

retail selling price $229

There is a second hand selling at $150 at SMH.

Should i rent??

Final Decision

01 Decemeber 2009, Tuesday

Final Decision: We are NOT moving out...

Very upset and disappointed... waited for nearly 4 years... but for Janelle, we decided not to move out. Will continue to stay in Yishun with my mil and rent out punggol flat if possible.

In 2010, will let Janelle attend special school (Rainbow) in Yishun for EIPIC, a more intents physio therapy and classes for slow development child. Once she reached her age milestone, i will put her to the childcare nearby to my bil's place so that i can return to work force. Wanted to put her to CC (kinderland) near my mama's place, but the school dont want to accept janelle and there are no more nearby CC around my mom's place. So have no choice, i need to source somewhere near to my mil so easy for mil and maid to fetch jx, and this area will have more options. It is not easy to find a CC for Janelle.. many schools had rejected my application after telling them Janelle's condition and need to give her medication on time. While many of them just tell me Janelle is not ready for CC. Target to put Janelle to school at the age of 2.. So stay in yishun will be more convenience.

Further more, hus afraid if anything happened and i cant handle, especially when he is out of town. In Yishun, at the very least his mom is around, bil and sil is nearby (less than 5 min drive).

3rd, my job is not stable as from now onwards.. If i lost this job, i believe not likely i cant find one that i can work from home. So most likely by then i will be a stay at home mom till Janelle is ready to go for Childcare. So hus hope to have the rental income to cover up Janelle's medical bills and have more saving to prepare for the worst.

Guess i have no choice, but to stay put with all my mil's nags.. as i dont have any better plans for the above... Wish me LUCK..

Going home today

Janelle fever had gone. No more seizure and we are heading home today. The next two days will be stay home days. No outing over the weekend.


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Still in kkh

Janelle fever was back yesterday night, so doctors wants to keep us in hospital till when she is 24 hrs no fever.

From this morning, her temp has back to normal. Praying hard that it settled and fever don't return.

Just now met hus teacher's, hus was telling her about jx condition. this is the second time I see him tears. I know it been hard on him too, i doubt he can accept jx with epliepsy. Every time he see jx on fits, that night will be a sleepless night for him. *patpat*



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Admitted to kkh

24th november 2009, Tuesday

Janelle admitted to kkh due to high fever. Her temp was at abt 38plus for the whole day. Given medicine and monitoring. But seizure starts to break thru after 10 days of seizure free. Hus starts to get panic n admit her to kkh at 11pm. Upon admission her temp hit up to 39.4.

Now her temp starts to drop and maintain at 37.4.. But need to monitor for 24 hrs fever and seizure free before we can discharge.






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Surprise present from hus

19th November 2009, Thursday

Hus called from Bangkok and ask me to stay at home from 3 to 5pm. He says he got a surprise present for me.

My first thought was wah! Gucci bag! But hus says no, it is more exp than a gucci bag and he refused to tell me what's that. Let my imagination went wild. Wondering if it will be a diamond ring or contractor to talk abt renovation.

At 3pm, door bells went off n my surprise present is here. And it is an office chair which cost $1700. It is an duorest chair with it's patented flexible hugging dual backrest mechanism, which is highly supportive for the back and ergonomically designed to reduce fatigue on the back, spine and thigh.

Hus seeing me having very bad ache this week due to long hours at work. So he bought it for me. :) sweet

小儿推拿

Mummy had came to last resort, brought Janelle to 小儿推拿 at bukit merah recommended by KA's mom who I got to know from forumn.

When I called the Chinese phsycian he, she told me that 推拿 will help in controlling fits and will let the child rest well. But this is not one time ok treament, we have to be patience and it had to be long term. And since jx comes 8 months late, she will need even longer period to see improvement. So mummy tot, as long as improvement can Liao. And afterall I have tried so many methods, one more also doesn't make much of the different.

So took half day n went for 小儿推拿. This will required weekly visit and has to be weekday cos she had fully booked for all weekends. Guess soon I will kanna fired by my boss, everyone busy like hell and I keep applying leave. No choice jx is number 1 and work come 2nd.

He helps jx to massage her hands, body, back, face, head and leg. She did more on jx right hand as I told her from EEG, it shows that the admormal waves are from left brain. When he message jx back, she laughed. Guess she is very shock... Haaa.. Jx is tired but can't sleep cos he is touching her. After the message session, once I put her in the car seat, I gave her pacifier, on air con and less than 5 sec she falls a sleep. Hmmm since like it really helps her to settled down easier.

Heee, in order to let her feel comfortable, we brought all her barang barang there: her smelly pillow, blanklet etc.







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奶奶 or Nice?

17th November 2009, Tuesday

This morning, Janelle shouted "奶" and causes agrument from my maid and my mil.

MIL told me jx called her "奶" but my maid says no, she says "Niceee".
haaa.. no idea is lofeng's 奶 or nice...

Crawling

There are 2 says about crawling:

1. Some adults are concerned that children who don't crawl in the traditional way will be less coordinated. This is a myth. As long as the baby begins to move across the floor using each arm and each leg, there is no cause for concern. The truth is many babies never crawl!


2. Crawling has also been linked to later reading skills. Crawling uses cross-lateral motions which cross hemispheres in the brain. These cross-lateral skills are also used when reading as your eyes track across a page. Treatment for children with developmental co-ordination disorders often includes crawling and rolling over on the floor. Read more: http://early-childhood-development.suite101.com/article.cfm/tummy_time_for_babies_who_dont_crawl#ixzz0WziUPaVD

Should i spent more time for her to crawl???

Weekend always ends fast

15th November 2009, Sunday

Seeing J worring for her mummy, wanted to cheer her up... long time since we last met up. , so A and me planned to gives her a surprise by picking her up from airport and have breakfast together.. but A was stuck at work early in the morning, hence we missed her flight... lucky we missed her flight, cos J's mom also went to pick her up from airport to surprise her too. nevertherless, we went to her place to pick her up for breakfast at MacDonald.. and i have my MacDonald Monopoly Map.. :) Have a great time with them and all head back home after breakfast to sleep. wahaha..



When Janelle took her afternoon nap, i also fall alseep while talking to my mom in her room on her bed.. too tired.. Seldom take afternoon nap, but today dont know why i slept 2.5 hrs.. together with Janelle.

Nice Sunday..

One term over at mygym

14th November 2009, Saturday

Time flies. It had been 2 mths since Janelle joined mygym. Today Janelle got her first certificate from mygym upon completion of one term.




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Dreams

11th November 2009, Wednesday

These few weeks, my sleep is not deep sleep at all.. keeping dreaming. I had dreamt that Jx calls me mummy.. dreamt that jx starts to crawl and walk.. dreamt that jx going to school.. dreamt that jx crawl over and hug me.. dreamt that i'm pregnant... almost everyday i will dream of something..

WHY?

am i stress? nope
am i worried? maybe
am i looking forward for these to happen? of cos
will it happen? yes, it will.. just a matter of time??

9th Tooth

All these days of haywire, it is all because of teething.

and being having only 8 teeth for the last 5 months, my maid spotted jx new tooth.

Nightmare

8th november 2009, Sunday

After the swim, jx took a long nap and only woke at 7pm for dinner. Brought her over to Indian family house to play with the kids. And only settled in for sleep at abt 11pm.

Mummy n daddy sleep at abt 12am after two epi of hk series.

1am - jx had her first seizure for the night. Hus attended to her, feed some water, change pamper n tight her in to sleep

2am - jx wake up crying because her pacifier dropped.

2.30am - jx turning here n there, and sob. Mummy too tired, went over to sleep beside her n pat her sleep. But she cries everytime pacifier dropped. This dead tired mummy woke up n scolded her.

3am - mummy woke up n feed jx milk. Hus was very angry because all the distrub, he went out to the living room to cool down. My mil woke up, and try to be kind, she went to set up a bed for hus in the living room. Hus nerve snapped, throw his temper n mil quickly take jx over to her room.

4am - finally can have some rest. But i am worrying for hus n jx, in my mind questions starts to come in.. why can't I have a more understanding husband, how come my girl has seizure, how come shep is not normal... How come she still can't sleep through the night.. Why thus happens to me??

5am - finally I fall asleep

6am - my maid wakes me up cos jx had her 2nd seizure. Quickly ran over and check on Janelle. This seizure lasted much longer than usual. When I was about to take medicine to help her abort fits, she back to self. But without hearing her cry, am not comfortable as worry if she still at fits. Hence I hit her hard at her foot, she just stare at me. I tried a few times, but she didn't cry out. I gets very worried, and don't know what to do. This time hus came over, he tried to hit Janelle one real hard on her feet, and when we about to give her the medicine to abort the condition. Finally she cried. This is when everyone hearts dropped. At least we know her mind is awake stage.

6.30am - I brought back to our room n rest. Mummy break down crying under the blanket. Never had this kind of feeling before. Am so worried for Janelle.

8am - daddy leave us to shanghai.

One thing make me feel bad till now is when daddy called me at airport, I told him, if can extend the trip, then pls extend instead telling him we miss him. Guess he must be very heart broken on this wife. But I really want some peace abs really hope he can have his good night rest.

Both hus n mil blamed this nightmare to the swim, as they says jx is overtired. To me, not sure is because of new food mushroom intro to her by mil or is the night gathering at Indian family place over excitied her or is the swim...


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First swim

7thNovember 2009, Saturday

Planning this swimming session since one month ago. From buying Janelle swim wear, sourcing for floats, mummy swim wear and sun block.

Finally, brought Janelle to public pool for her first swim, but mummy not feeling too good, hence daddy and jx's 二哥 went into swim pool with Janelle with mummy n auntie off shore preparing n serve them in pool.

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Tea break at north point

4th November 2009

















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what a day...

31st October 2009, Saturday

Unhappy things can happens many many time in a day:

- Went mygym today with Janelle, got the maid to warm up with jx while i went over bookstore to gets some stationary. Due to long queue at the cashier, i missed the 1st half of class. I rushed back and managed to attend 2nd half class.

- designed and ordered a birthday cake for my sis who is celebrating birthday today.. but i placed with "This saturday (01 Nov 2009), ended up they didnt checked with me on the date again and just placed the order as sunday (01 Nov 2009). As a result, no cake for my sis.. I feel so bad, and got 2 cakes for her instead.

- Today, I saw someone i disliked for years since my sec time. spoiled my mood.

- i opened the window in my study room, and worked half way and janelle cries so i went to attend her. suddenly it rained and i forgot about the opened window, as the result... kogan's laptop had showered with rain. i feel very bad when seeing him so upset.. i know he wanted to scold me, but he didnt says a single word... lucky the laptop is alright after blow dry...

- as usual, janelle didnt sleep in the night. |||

Tomorrow will be better.

Lost all photos

sob sob sob... i lost my thumb drive.. inside are all Janelle's photos from Day 1 till her 1st birthday.. all gone...

Photos

Taken on 25th Oct 2009 @ Gong Gong's Birthday Party

Janelle taking photo with birthday gong -

Mummy: "Janelle, where is you smile??"
and she went "hahaha" :) see, she made ah gong laugh till cant see his eyes.


Our family photos: (with my younger brother missing)

Janelle & Daddy

Janelle & Mummy

Daddy: "Janelle, SMILEE" and she )

My Pretty little girl....

When you can sleep through out the night??

30th October 2009

Hiaz, this mummy going to complaint again...

Janelle ah, you are now 14 months.. when then you want to sleep throughout the night?? Mummy & Daddy very tired already..

Mummy got no choice, but to give up on you in the night and pass you to your 奶奶. haiz..

Before 1 year old, whenever jx wakes up in the night, 奶奶wants to heckjet her, i will scold 奶奶 cos i dont want jx to have the idea that wake up in the night to play... I will left her alone and she will play with herself till she sleep. but it doesnt seems to works, till now she still wakes up in the night for 2to3 hrs... Now is worst, she will talk to herself, screaming away that's wakes everyone up.. in order to give her daddy enough sleep for work next day and prevent him throwing his temper, i will bring janelle to study room if i have the energy to wake up.. or 奶奶will carry janelle away...

Girl ah Girl ah... when you want to stop waking up in the night??

i swear i will throw away your pacifier soon... geeeee...

Milestone

When Janelle is 14 months,
- she started to sit up by herself.. (but only from her left side, right side she cant)
- she grabbed chair and stand up..
- when we says byebye, she tried to wave with us (not very good at waving yet, but every time she do the same action when we says byebye)
- she starts to step out her feet while holding on the toy (not long before she cry for help, but at least something)

When Janelle is 13 months,
- she reached out for her toys
- she started talking to herself (bar bar, ya ya, ti ti etc)
- when we says carry, she will open her arms

Slow but at least some improvement which can make the mummy happy..
Janelle!! 加油！！

Night Shopping

26th October 2009

Monday blue and Daddy not working, requested daddy to bring us to NorthPoint, of cos with Janelle.

3 of us went off to Northpoint after dinner without telling the maid and MIL.. :) We went shopping and eating.. when in food court, daddy went to get some food... Janelle starts singing song... very loud and there was a little girl, slighter older than Janelle sang back.. Imaging 2 toddlers singing songs in the food court which none of the adults can understand.. oh mine..

The next table little girl's parent managed to stop their kid screaming... but I was there.. "Janelle, enough !!!... Janelle.. Ok le!!... Janelle!"

Grandpa's Birthday

25th October 2009

We celebrated my daddy's birthday at home with international buffet from Hiton Hotel. Father invited all his workers and some drinking friends over. And of cos, with the families.

Before poped over to daddy's house, we went to united sq's toy r us... to get a walker for her and had a tea break in Xing Wang Cafe... wooo... Janelle got her new nick from her daddy "Big Worm".. when i put her in the baby chair, she was trying to stand and moving non-stop. So daddy carried her, and she flight with her daddy.. snuggle here and there, and she was banging the tables and "talking" non-stop.. aka screaming as Janelle voice is not those soft soft one.



Janelle enjoyed the celebration, her naps went haywire that day.. she refused to take her afternoon nap and only fall asleep at 5pm till 730pm, guess she was excitied :) I brought Janelle around introducing to my dad's friends, workers and our relatives.. Janelle was there laughing away.. very cute..

When we singing birthday song, Once lights went off, Janelle laugher went on. She earned ah Gong laughters.. haaa, she knows who's the man who have power at home huh.

EEG

22 October 2009, Thursday

Today went to kkh early in the morning be the first patient of cmc, as Janelle going through 2nd time of EEG. As the EEG need to be taken in both awake n sleeping mode, so the EEG tech want me to pat Janelle to sleep if possible else will need to give her some drug to go to sleep. Both maid n myself patted for 2 hrs but Janelle was still awake n was very excitied. Still playing n laughing with us. The next patient was there, and we gave to give up the room for him but no sleep mode taken. The EEG tech knows that I not into giving jx drug to sleep, so she allowed to let us go without disconnect the electron and to return to the lab after Janelle fallen a sleep. This naughty girl, fall asleep once I seat down with my lunch. After lunch, returned back to EEG lab to continue records her EEG.




After EEG, we have an appointment with the doctor. The EEG rests shows that Janelle brain wave at the left side are having some admormal sparks with according to the doctor this is expected as Janelle is eplieptic, and these sparks are the cause of the seizures. And this also tells me that why jx is better on her left side.

At the end of the kkh visit, I'm dead tired. And rushed home to continue to work. Really, mentally n physcially I'm very tired. How I wish I can give up my job and be a full time mom to take care of Janelle.

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First wedding lunch

Yesterday had my first wedding lunch ever with my family.

Wedding lunch is very tiring. We reached there at abt 1, and reached home at 530. What a long day.

Here's some photos to share. Realised that I didn't took a photo of the couple. Hee.. Anyway, they look great.












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Mid might woes

Janelle is now trying to talk. Ta ta ta, ya ya ya, ti ti ti...

About 3 weeks ago, Janelle starts wake up in the middle of night singing song at high pitch (screaming n shouting.) Yes! and her volume is not soft. We have tried all ways, telling her not to sing song in middle of night. Give milk. Give water. Talk to her. Even her 奶奶 tried to bring her over and talk to her nicely. But every night, she still wake up sing song n playing with herself.

2 days ago, hit my nerve after so many days of sleepless night. I gave her a slap her when she scream, of cos is light slap on her cheek. She starts to tone down n talk to herself instead.

Yesterday night, my girl starts to fight with me. Now she know how to sit up by herself. So when I put her down to sleep, she will sit up herself n play. Haaa, not easy to put her to sleep now. But I'm glad that she can do it.

Now she is very cute. She knows that I'm angry with her. She tried to make me happy. She tried to roll over n laugh with me... Usually when she do it, I will play with her n cheer her up. But yesterday she do it, I didn't cheer her... She tried a few times till I laugh... Then she roll over to my side n pat me... Heee, trying to make me smile.

Is this call 苦中作乐？

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Updates of Janelle

8th October 2009, Thursday

Follow up with KKH doctor. As Janelle suddenly developed rashes yesterday night, doctor has concern with it, and she dont want diagnosed anything as she is just the stand in doctor from janelle doc in charge was away. And she will be transfer out to private sector, so not able to follow up closely on Janelle. So, she transfer us back to our first doctor in charge who had just returned from 3 months break and will be follow up with Janelle more closely for near future.

No sure what kind of rashes janelle had, heat rashes/allergies rashes?? doctor himself also dont want to have any adjustment of medication dosage. but he wants janelle to go through another EEG again and see if brain wave had changed when the pattern of fits changes. Next appointment is on 22nd Oct, EEG with Doctor conclusion.

Looking at Janelle slow development, doctor ask if we are interested to sent Janelle to EIPIC - Early Intervention Programme for Infants & Young Children. EIPIC is a center-based programme that provides social, educational and rehabilitative services for children aged 0-6 years diagnosed to be at risk of having a handicapping condition or special need that will affect his or her development. I checked the website and saw the photo gallery, it's mainly for retarded kids, which gives me a shivers and "Does Janelle needs this??" I have dropped an email to the center to find out more, and hopefully can drop by the center to see if it suits janelle anot.

Mummy at work

世上只有妈妈好！I called my mom up over the weekend and asked her to take care of Janelle as i need to be in office for Training this week. Without giving a second words, "好！你带她来" and she arrange sil to pick up her grandson and granddaughter from school instead.

Janelle were in ahgong's place for 3 days (6th to 8th October). I dropped her in the morning 730am and pick her up in the evening 7pm.. She and my maid just love to go over to ahma's place, for my maid is because noone nags/scold on her and have my mom's maid chat with her... For janelle, it is because there has 姐姐 plays with her.

Today, my mil tells me that she see abit improvement in Janelle after these days at ahgong's place, when she sees janelle starts to talk. Just now, I asked jx.. "Do you want milk milk", she replied "要".. and i went off to make milk for her... but she didnt finish the milk and fall alseep. out of 100 times, she will replied 1 time.. better than nothing. :)

I always dont really likes the way that my mom take care of kids, we are growed up in sarong, no proper eating seat, etc.. but compare to my mil, she is doing a lot much better jobs... kidswill behave themselves under her care.. no idea why.. and i told mummy no sarong, meals had to be in high chair, my mummy just follow.. for my mil, she says "i take care of so many kids, dont need you to teach me what to do".. so i always says my mummy is the best.. thank you mummy.

Trial Class @ bibinogs

3rd October 2009, Saturday

Joined in with SingaporeMotherhood's forum in the trial class @ bibinogs. Nice meeting up the babies and mummies who i had been chatting for a year plus. :)

Overall, i find the class was so-so only. It is more to study where they teaches a,b,c to 1 yr old kids.. You can see the kids were running around the class instead of listening to what the teachers teach, except for Janelle.. She was there looking at the teachers, not sure if she is stoning or paying attention to the teachers. Janelle indeed enjoyed the accompany of babies... haaa.. she had been looking at them, screaming and shouting in the class.

Personally i prefer mygym, where allows Janelle playing around and explore with games and activities. I do understand is good to start learning from young, but wouldn't it be too young now?? Today is in a kaisu world, where all the parents want their child to be growing up gifted. Told myself, dont be kaisu mummy. They will learn when they are really. Guess these few years are the only time when we don't have to worry about a,b,c.. why stress janelle now?

war with MIL

2nd October, 2009 Friday...

It's a friday!! Yeah... Always looking forward for Saturday cos i can have fun with Janelle in her class again.

But my MIL spoiled my Friday mood.. what a #$%^&*... when i woke up, i told myself, it's a friday.. cheer up.. the next minute, i heard my MIL complaining to hus that i'm blaming her.. and starts scolding me at my back.. pianz, i not blaming her, i just tell her not to do so... the best thing is hus just listen and never help to explain.. anything la... she says i blame her, then i blame her la... no strength to argue with her.. the best she gets super angry and move over to bil/sil place.. don't wish to see her or talk to her...

Dear... I WANT TO MOVE OUT... HATE TO BE IN THIS SITUATION... 相处容易，同住难。

OT

1st October, 2009 thursday

Today went to kkh for OT. According to the therapist, Janelle is associate with the wrong technique hence she is not able to sit up, crawl n walk. She wants us to start her training from day 1, teaching her how to roll over n sit up by herself.

After OT, went U2 for a walk. Wanted to get Janelle some clothes. Janelle was a bit cranky cos she wanted to sleep. So i ask the maid to sit out n feed herilk wjile i quicky go n do some shopping. After I finished one level, hus says let's go home n let Janelle rest. I went home with empty handed but Kogan managed to get a gift set for his colleage.

Reached home, told my mil what the therapist says. Then I ask her to stop pulling her up as she learn the wrong techique from there. Ended she blamed us, saying that we are the one who keep pulling her, she said she already told us not to do that. N she blame me that I keep pushing her forward. I gets so pissed off n I shoot her back. I pushed her forward is to let her know she need to use her hands to support herself in order not to fall. But everymorning u r the want who 123 pull her up. Then guess what she gets angry. And the same old things happens again. Making a big fuss n says she want to hands off Janelle. In front of me, she using mardrain to says bad abt the maid. In front of the maid, she use malay to scold me. Pianz.

God, give me a break!! I'm already so stress up. Please stop all these nonsense... I'm sick of these.


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29th September 2009

This morning, after I sent Kogan to work n before visit to gynae n dental, I went bugis to pray. Praying for jx health. This is the first time I tried asking for direction. The interpertion was bad." Don't waste of time n energy. A stone can never turn into mirror." my heart sinked n my tears flows down when am walking towards my car.


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1st lesson @ mygym

26th September, 2009 Saturday

Today brought Janelle to tampines mygym for her class. This is first time Janelle attending class. She refused to take her morning nap. Was very worried that she will be cranky in her class. But when she reached mygym she was so excitied. Indeed, she had enjoyed her class.

She is attending the waddlers class which is for 8 mths to 18 mths. In the class, Janelle got 6 friends who are abt 12 to 14 mths but they started to walk except for Janelle. I took a deep breath n enjoy the class with Janelle, not looking at other kids.






When looking at those kids during free play, am really asking myself why me? Why Janelle? Whhhyy..

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Sleeping beauty

22nd September, 2009 Tuesday

See，this is how my girl sleep. Crossing terorrity to mummy's bed.





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Mygym

19 September 2009, Saturday

Today I brought Janelle to mygym open house at tampines. To my surprise, she enjoyed it. When the instructor turn her upside down, she can even laughed. So on the spot, I signed up 8 weeks program $300.


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SMH August 2008 Babies

Done up a collage for SMH August 2008 babies...

Cant sleep

18th September 2009, friday..

cant sleep, and decided to come online and blog.. meanwhile to clear the mails and letters which had been on my table for ages.

While doing my filing, Janelle's bill are the most. haiz... all the doctors follow up visit, medical bills, etc... I dont have the courage to caculate the total amount. Dont want to see that, so throw all the bills into a file and put it right at the bottom of the drawers. Maybe when janelle recovered and starts to earn big money, i can pull out these bills and claims for her.. haaa.. that would be a strike of toto manz..

my table done, mails done, banking done, filing done.. and time to sleep... good night.

Calling "奶奶"

My mil had been telling me that my girl had started to call her "奶奶". But everytime i heard it is just "呵". Not sure if is me who are not sensitive to catch her "奶奶" or is my mil 一廂情願。I told my mil that i didnt heard it clearly.. she says i jealous. hmmm, true i will be very jealous if jx called "奶奶" first but will be more happy to know that she can talks.

Janelle likes to play with her tongue by "boo" with all her 口水. My mil says she picked up from her, as she told her that motor cycle bobobo... pianz, i think is more she pick up from my maid and myself as we had been playing pee-ke-BOO with her for so long.

haaaa...

Janelle 13months and 2 days

18th September, 2009 Friday

From this week onwards, it will be mad rush at work. Preparing for FY10.

The whole week had been spending most of the time at work, not much time to spend with Janelle. But every night, i will make sure i'm the one who give her the night feed, talk to her, sing song to her and settle her down to bed. And will wait till she fallen into deep sleep before i back to my computer. heee, at times we fall asleep together.

Today, i took some photos of her. Love her smiles...