Nightmare

8th november 2009, Sunday

After the swim, jx took a long nap and only woke at 7pm for dinner. Brought her over to Indian family house to play with the kids. And only settled in for sleep at abt 11pm.

Mummy n daddy sleep at abt 12am after two epi of hk series.

1am - jx had her first seizure for the night. Hus attended to her, feed some water, change pamper n tight her in to sleep

2am - jx wake up crying because her pacifier dropped.

2.30am - jx turning here n there, and sob. Mummy too tired, went over to sleep beside her n pat her sleep. But she cries everytime pacifier dropped. This dead tired mummy woke up n scolded her.

3am - mummy woke up n feed jx milk. Hus was very angry because all the distrub, he went out to the living room to cool down. My mil woke up, and try to be kind, she went to set up a bed for hus in the living room. Hus nerve snapped, throw his temper n mil quickly take jx over to her room.

4am - finally can have some rest. But i am worrying for hus n jx, in my mind questions starts to come in.. why can't I have a more understanding husband, how come my girl has seizure, how come shep is not normal... How come she still can't sleep through the night.. Why thus happens to me??

5am - finally I fall asleep

6am - my maid wakes me up cos jx had her 2nd seizure. Quickly ran over and check on Janelle. This seizure lasted much longer than usual. When I was about to take medicine to help her abort fits, she back to self. But without hearing her cry, am not comfortable as worry if she still at fits. Hence I hit her hard at her foot, she just stare at me. I tried a few times, but she didn't cry out. I gets very worried, and don't know what to do. This time hus came over, he tried to hit Janelle one real hard on her feet, and when we about to give her the medicine to abort the condition. Finally she cried. This is when everyone hearts dropped. At least we know her mind is awake stage.

6.30am - I brought back to our room n rest. Mummy break down crying under the blanket. Never had this kind of feeling before. Am so worried for Janelle.

8am - daddy leave us to shanghai.

One thing make me feel bad till now is when daddy called me at airport, I told him, if can extend the trip, then pls extend instead telling him we miss him. Guess he must be very heart broken on this wife. But I really want some peace abs really hope he can have his good night rest.

Both hus n mil blamed this nightmare to the swim, as they says jx is overtired. To me, not sure is because of new food mushroom intro to her by mil or is the night gathering at Indian family place over excitied her or is the swim...


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