May is a month celebrating mother's day…
Motherhood in my dictionary is an extreme tough journey that once u stepped in there is no u-turn. After i became a mother, then i know that how tough it is.
The joy of motherhood is to see your children grew up healthy and smart and on the righteous path. The pain of motherhood is to see your children suffering in sickness , not able to learn and talking the wrong path. Guess, 90% of my motherhood is in the pain and nightmare.
Before Janelle, I have never been to hospital and hardly see doctor. After having Janelle, in and out clinic and hospital had becomes a routine. Before Janelle, I live in dreams and hope, after Janelle I live in a hopeless land don't know what's next to come. After knowing God, I live in faith and prayers.
Baby sis told me one day that pop shared with her that he really really hope that I can have #2. I would love to but I'm guess i don't have the courage and energy. Janelle don't put on weight, i get the blame. Janelle fall sick and admitted to hospital, i get the blame. Janelle is a routine baby where i gave her play, eat, sleep at the same time everyday cos she doesnt know how to express herself, yet i get the blame of dont know how to take care if children. When Janelle first have seizure, I get blame, blaming me never take care of myself during pregnancy. Drink cold water, eat dont know what banana or eating lamb. Every time Janelle went into seizure I feel so helpless. The sleepless nights to take care of her is driving me up the wall each time. Other than maid, no other helper available I can reply on for me time, don't even say a date with hus. Complaints put aside, all these are secondary. The most important is that no one can guarantee that #2 would be a normal child. What if the 2nd one is the same as Janelle? We seriously can't take 2nd blow, and don't want to loss any hope in this world.
There are countless of time, our conversation has "If janelle is normal child," …. there are many we would like to do… like having meals out, meeting up with friends, family dinners, babies gathering, birthday parties, going shopping, doing traveling together etc etc. What is lifestyle? i don't know. thru blogs, fb and instagram, i see the world but i can't feel the world.
If Janelle is normal child, what would i get for Mother's Day?
Motherhood in my dictionary is an extreme tough journey that once u stepped in there is no u-turn. After i became a mother, then i know that how tough it is.
The joy of motherhood is to see your children grew up healthy and smart and on the righteous path. The pain of motherhood is to see your children suffering in sickness , not able to learn and talking the wrong path. Guess, 90% of my motherhood is in the pain and nightmare.
Before Janelle, I have never been to hospital and hardly see doctor. After having Janelle, in and out clinic and hospital had becomes a routine. Before Janelle, I live in dreams and hope, after Janelle I live in a hopeless land don't know what's next to come. After knowing God, I live in faith and prayers.
Baby sis told me one day that pop shared with her that he really really hope that I can have #2. I would love to but I'm guess i don't have the courage and energy. Janelle don't put on weight, i get the blame. Janelle fall sick and admitted to hospital, i get the blame. Janelle is a routine baby where i gave her play, eat, sleep at the same time everyday cos she doesnt know how to express herself, yet i get the blame of dont know how to take care if children. When Janelle first have seizure, I get blame, blaming me never take care of myself during pregnancy. Drink cold water, eat dont know what banana or eating lamb. Every time Janelle went into seizure I feel so helpless. The sleepless nights to take care of her is driving me up the wall each time. Other than maid, no other helper available I can reply on for me time, don't even say a date with hus. Complaints put aside, all these are secondary. The most important is that no one can guarantee that #2 would be a normal child. What if the 2nd one is the same as Janelle? We seriously can't take 2nd blow, and don't want to loss any hope in this world.
There are countless of time, our conversation has "If janelle is normal child," …. there are many we would like to do… like having meals out, meeting up with friends, family dinners, babies gathering, birthday parties, going shopping, doing traveling together etc etc. What is lifestyle? i don't know. thru blogs, fb and instagram, i see the world but i can't feel the world.
If Janelle is normal child, what would i get for Mother's Day?
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