Sausage lip

Don't know what's wrong with #msjanelle, woke up with sausage lip.

missy says its not allergy cos one side is much swollen then the other. So we guessed is insert bites… but what can be on her bed? she loves putting hands into her mouth, so i blame all to the germs on her fingers.  

Twitching On Left Side of cheek

My upper left cheek below my eye had been twitching for a week and still ongoing. initially didn't really care about it till i can feel abit of numbness on my cheek. And my colleague told me it can be a symptoms of stroke as his uncle had the same experiences before. That's scared me off to see a doctor immediately.

I went to my family doctor (western doctor), he just says "monitor" if the numbness affects your talking then go to A&E immediately as it is a stroke else just need to monitor. That's all he says, no medicines given and nothing else and i paid a $28 for consultation..

Then I also went to see TCM, she says it is due to stress, anxiety and not enough sleep that causes nerves to expand and hitting against each other. Nothing to worry as this is normal when your body is under stress and not enough sleep. She advised that all i need to do is to take rest and have a good sleep, and don't need to go under needles which had been praying not to. :-> i'm scare of needles. :)

Take Care.

I have not accepted...

When doctor from child development says 'nothing will change' and my tears just flows.. I knew that I have not accepted Janelle being special. Deep inside my heart i'm fighting... praying for miracle and hoping for improvment every day. Just developmental delay and not intellectual disabled.

Back to movie..

After 6 years, finally stepping into cinema for movies again. I used to love catching movies, at least once every week with my movie buddy - not my husband cos he said that watching movie is a waste of $ and time activity - till i have janelle.

My movie buddy dated me and there we go.. hus stay home taking care of janelle and mommy catching  GOZILLA. The world most famous monster is back, reminds of the old gorilla we watch when we are kids. Since it had been a while i been to movie, i wanted to eat popcorns, nachos, hotdog bun… My friend laughed at me having buffet in the cinema. :P

 

Facebook blessing

Recently I saw some posts on the facebook where mommies giving out items to truely bless others but some is hanging goat head selling dog meat.

There is this mummy who says 'to bless' the unused diapper and just need $2 for postage and handling fee.. but she limited each mommy to 2 pcs only.. which means $1 per pc of diaper. Thats 100% more of its org price. And best of all, strictly no meet up.. which means you have to pay cant get it for free even she is your neighbor. Whats iconic is that there are 20over comments to be "bless" for this 2 pcs diaper. 

Is this a sincere blessing? 

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Motherhood

May is a month celebrating mother's day…

Motherhood in my dictionary is an extreme tough journey that once u stepped in there is no u-turn. After i became a mother, then i know that how tough it is.

The joy of motherhood is to see your children grew up healthy and smart and on the righteous path. The pain of motherhood is to see your children suffering in sickness , not able to learn and talking the wrong path. Guess, 90% of my motherhood is in the pain and nightmare.

Before Janelle, I have never been to hospital and hardly see doctor. After having Janelle, in and out clinic and hospital had becomes a routine. Before Janelle, I live in dreams and hope, after Janelle I live in a hopeless land don't know what's next to come. After knowing God, I live in faith and prayers.

Baby sis told me one day that pop shared with her that he really really hope that I can have #2. I would love to but I'm guess i don't have the courage and energy. Janelle don't put on weight, i get the blame. Janelle fall sick and admitted to hospital, i get the blame. Janelle is a routine baby where i gave her play, eat, sleep at the same time everyday cos she doesnt know how to express herself, yet i get the blame of dont know how to take care if children. When Janelle first have seizure, I get blame, blaming me never take care of myself during pregnancy. Drink cold water, eat dont know what banana or eating lamb. Every time Janelle went into seizure I feel so helpless. The sleepless nights to take care of her is driving me up the wall each time. Other than maid, no other helper available I can reply on for me time, don't even say a date with hus. Complaints put aside, all these are secondary. The most important is that no one can guarantee that #2 would be a normal child. What if the 2nd one is the same as Janelle? We seriously can't take 2nd blow, and don't want to loss any hope in this world.

There are countless of time, our conversation has "If janelle is normal child," …. there are many we would like to do… like having meals out, meeting up with friends, family dinners, babies gathering, birthday parties, going shopping, doing traveling together etc etc. What is lifestyle? i don't know. thru blogs, fb and instagram, i see the world but i can't feel the world.

If Janelle is normal child, what would i get for Mother's Day?

Center of attraction

Whenever i bring janelle out, we will becomes the center of attraction because of Janelle behavior and noise she made.

Yesterday morning, out of the blue moon, hus says let's go downstair for breakfast. And there we went with Janelle. Soon later, i noticed that the tables around us are talking about janelle that doesn't make me feel good. Once after breakfast, i get helper to bring Janelle home first.

Today at church, when pastor prayed, janelle "prayed" too.. she was making noise competing with pastor prayers. Heads are turning back looking at us from all over the places, having not much choice, helper brought janelle out for a walk before send her to sunday class.

Again, today dinner, hus says let's go out for dinner with mom for mother's day. I know that with janelle and in town, it may not to be my liking. So i requested to go for early dinner instead. We went for dinner at 530pm where i not expecting much crowd. But have way the dinner, Janelle started to throw temper.. the place get crowded and once again the eyes around us, pressured me to finish my dinner as quickly as possible.

I know that there still a long way to go.. what should i do to have normal lifestyle too? I don't want to be the center of attraction and i also don't want to be confine at home for all 3 meals. :(

Setting up an online shop

Recently I had setup an online shop with bffs, then realised that its not as easy as I thought. Working with people, disagreement will definitely comes in. Thank god, we have know each others for so long and each are very understanding.. and we put our friendship in the first place.

0. Get the website up. Registered domain, platform and web design.

1. Products.. research, contacts, network and travels to ensure the quality of each released are excellent or at least something that we would allow our children to put on before we sells it. We handpicked all items for import.

2. Photo... most of the time, photos from suppliers doesn't look as the actual item, so we would want to take photo of the actual items. No surprise to our customers. Of cos, in order to have the photo looks good, photoshop like remove the background so that the item can stand up. All these all additional effort.

3. Release.. giving name to best description to the items, taking the measurement of actual and pricing would be another round of effort.

4. Marketing. .. most of the time we cant let the product speak on its own sitting on the website. Market becomes the next interesting topic to understand customer behavior and bring customers in.

5. Dispatch... the last but not the least step.. pack and post it. We wanted the item to reach our customers as early as possible, so we are watching up the postage collection time to ensure that each day we didn't want to miss the collect and have the item to be received within the next 2 days.

Its a long process huh... one of the joy from the online shop is i able to pick up the items for janelle and let janelle dress it first. :) and of cos meeting those nice customers and becoming friends sharing the tips of childcare and encouragement.

Would this become my permanent career?