Watching TV and eating GuaZi is more important than having water leaking thru the wall at home... @#$%^&*... I called him many times and he ignored me.. I cant stand it and went out to give him a big scold... now he fired me back... screaming and shouting at me... i wonder what i did wrong??? I know nothing he can do.. but i just need an acknowledgement or says i will call up HDB tmr morning.. is that hard?? I guess the the only wrong i did is to marry him.
I asked myself as i wife, as i mummy i have done all i can... in US trip, i didnt spent anything on myself, all stuff i got is for janelle and him.. but none of his trip (only once) come back things for me.. This afternoon, i told him my plan, i need to go Nex to exchange the shoe then to mygym but he went to bed for his afternoon nap.. i dont want to distrub him so i brought janelle out myself to mygym with maid without disturbing him. i did up the house for CNY... i prepared everything without him worrying... he wanted to go cycling, wanted to go out late night with friends for coffee, i never says No.. and now just a small things that i hope i can rely on him.. I'm wrong. Why do i need a husband?? 4 years marriage, the only reason why it lasted till now is because out of 4 years, he is out of town 3.5 years, else i belive this marriage already long gone.
I believe as a single mom, i can handled all the things well. should i choose that way??? sick of all the nonsense from him...
I need a man to pamper me, love me, support me, think for the family and not himself, always stand at my side no matter what happened and not adding on stress to me when he wants to relax, enjoy himself. he did nothing as a man i need.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Weekly Tuina
Every Sunday 930pm I will drive janelle to bt timah about 25km away from our place for massage.
See how she enjoyed the message...
See how she enjoyed the message...
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Stand up without support
Finally she clicked the milestone of stand up without support on her 29mths...
It seems very easy for all children to stands and go... But this doesn't comes in as easy for janelle. Had been doing squad to stand daily to build up her strength in knee for the past 1 year... And finally, this week she had constantly do it..
- Posted from my iPhone
It seems very easy for all children to stands and go... But this doesn't comes in as easy for janelle. Had been doing squad to stand daily to build up her strength in knee for the past 1 year... And finally, this week she had constantly do it..
- Posted from my iPhone
What a busy week...
This had been a trouble week for me... I'm like having holiday mood, not feeling to work at all... So had been trying to eat snake here and there to get my CNY preparation done.
Quite a bit of things done this week, This week had went into office 2days because of F2F meeting.. Going into office is really waste of time when u are so busy.. The traveling up and down, sending and fetching janelle to my mom place, it can takes me 3 hrs just to travel. And worst, in office it's very hard to focus as there always questions for you. Once in a while go in is good to build the bond with the colleagues, but never when peak period..
This week, managed to meet up with my bestie for lunch and also a movie.. Because it's amanda's birthday that's why i can have a break from work and janelle. We went movie at GV Gold, $28 a ticket with huge sofa... This is our first time wor... So luxury!!!
And bought and build up a birthday present for mung. P/S I only did up the head of the smallest mee kat... The rest are all done by Jess..
Brought janelle twice to kkh this week.
Tuesday for OT, and we met her PT while waiting... She back from ML and she was shocked and happy seeing janelle walking without support. :)
Thursday, we had a follow up dr at kkh too. Same old thing from dr. He asked if I'm ok to increase the drug on janelle again.. As the drug is exp, so dr asked before putting any plans on her. Since janelle has improvement, so I prefer to stay on and monitor.
This week I also managed to bring janelle for a photoshoot at a studio. But cos was too rush not able to choose the photo yet.will be back to select the photos this weekend. Will post the photos soon. Stay tune.
Had finished doing CNY shopping for both house... :)
Am looking for a vase for yin liu, but been to a couple for flora this week.. Cos see any to my liking.. Any idea where I get one???
Quite a bit of things done this week, This week had went into office 2days because of F2F meeting.. Going into office is really waste of time when u are so busy.. The traveling up and down, sending and fetching janelle to my mom place, it can takes me 3 hrs just to travel. And worst, in office it's very hard to focus as there always questions for you. Once in a while go in is good to build the bond with the colleagues, but never when peak period..
This week, managed to meet up with my bestie for lunch and also a movie.. Because it's amanda's birthday that's why i can have a break from work and janelle. We went movie at GV Gold, $28 a ticket with huge sofa... This is our first time wor... So luxury!!!
And bought and build up a birthday present for mung. P/S I only did up the head of the smallest mee kat... The rest are all done by Jess..
Brought janelle twice to kkh this week.
Tuesday for OT, and we met her PT while waiting... She back from ML and she was shocked and happy seeing janelle walking without support. :)
Thursday, we had a follow up dr at kkh too. Same old thing from dr. He asked if I'm ok to increase the drug on janelle again.. As the drug is exp, so dr asked before putting any plans on her. Since janelle has improvement, so I prefer to stay on and monitor.
This week I also managed to bring janelle for a photoshoot at a studio. But cos was too rush not able to choose the photo yet.will be back to select the photos this weekend. Will post the photos soon. Stay tune.
Had finished doing CNY shopping for both house... :)
Am looking for a vase for yin liu, but been to a couple for flora this week.. Cos see any to my liking.. Any idea where I get one???
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Janelle Stat
27/01/11 - weight 11.3kg - height 86cm
29/07/10 - weight 10.4kg
17/12/09 - weight 9.97kg - height 77.5cm
31/08/09 - weight 9.11kg - height 75.6cm
17/08/09 - weight 9.05kg - height 75.5cm
25/05/09 - weight 8.43kg height 71.5cm
11/05/09 - weight 8.09kg - height 71.5cm
14/04/09 - Weight 7.7kg - height 70cm
28/03/09 - Weight 7.55kg
28/02/09 - Weight 7.1kg
17/02/09 - Weight 7.07kg
19/01/09 - Weight 6.6kg - height 63cm
20/12/08 - Weight 6.2kg - height 62cm
24/11/08 - Weight 5.72kg
15/11/08 - Weight 5.7kg
16/08/08 - Weight 2.7kg - height 49cm
29/07/10 - weight 10.4kg
17/12/09 - weight 9.97kg - height 77.5cm
31/08/09 - weight 9.11kg - height 75.6cm
17/08/09 - weight 9.05kg - height 75.5cm
25/05/09 - weight 8.43kg height 71.5cm
11/05/09 - weight 8.09kg - height 71.5cm
14/04/09 - Weight 7.7kg - height 70cm
28/03/09 - Weight 7.55kg
28/02/09 - Weight 7.1kg
17/02/09 - Weight 7.07kg
19/01/09 - Weight 6.6kg - height 63cm
20/12/08 - Weight 6.2kg - height 62cm
24/11/08 - Weight 5.72kg
15/11/08 - Weight 5.7kg
16/08/08 - Weight 2.7kg - height 49cm
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Mygym
To provide her more exposure, interacting with normal children, we returned to Mygym. Trial on other gym like JWT, the program they have is actual the same, but the distance is much far. So we returned to mygym at tampines.
This time round, janelle does not want to sit down and listen to the teacher at all. She is always running around the classroom, always, with her in an hr gym will drained off my energy.
This time round, janelle does not want to sit down and listen to the teacher at all. She is always running around the classroom, always, with her in an hr gym will drained off my energy.
Friday, January 21, 2011
There's still HOPE
After 1.5 years, this is the first time someone told me that there is still hope for Janelle...
Glenn Doman Program!! Have been hearding about Glenn Doman, but never know how good are they.. the course is very expensive few thousands for the starters, didnt see any review and didnt met someone who tried. Till i met Janelle classmate mom, in my previous post, i mentioned that i see lots of improvement on this boy in Janelle's class. And had a chat with her mom and get to know that they are in the Glenn Doman Program. She gave me some confident and instinct to give it a try.
Today a trainer from the GDBaby called me and explained to me what is epilepsy and they will do for an epilepsy child. Epilepsy is a reflect where they will shut their brain off due to lack of oxygen. If the seizure is short, this is actually saving the brain from brain damage due lacking of oxygen. And one of the side effort medicine has is to slow down the intake of oxygen, hence usually when they are on flu/fever medicine, you will see more seizure to happens.
First Steps they will do:
1. Nutrition - less oil, less fried food and less dairy products. Not all children can takes dairy product as the reaction of cow's hormones in different body reacts differently, and this is harmful to especially to those child who is slow in development.
2. they need higher input/mobility - at 2.5yrs old, she needs to walk/run for about 200m a day to allows enough oxygen into the lung and brain
3. no vaccination for her if possible, during each jabs, they will input mercury into her body which cause slower intake of oxygen.
There is a introduction course once a year in singapore, in July. I would like to give it a shot and see how it can help janelle. First of all, i will need to get their books to read up about Glenn Doman wrote about brain damaged child.
Glenn Doman Program!! Have been hearding about Glenn Doman, but never know how good are they.. the course is very expensive few thousands for the starters, didnt see any review and didnt met someone who tried. Till i met Janelle classmate mom, in my previous post, i mentioned that i see lots of improvement on this boy in Janelle's class. And had a chat with her mom and get to know that they are in the Glenn Doman Program. She gave me some confident and instinct to give it a try.
Today a trainer from the GDBaby called me and explained to me what is epilepsy and they will do for an epilepsy child. Epilepsy is a reflect where they will shut their brain off due to lack of oxygen. If the seizure is short, this is actually saving the brain from brain damage due lacking of oxygen. And one of the side effort medicine has is to slow down the intake of oxygen, hence usually when they are on flu/fever medicine, you will see more seizure to happens.
First Steps they will do:
1. Nutrition - less oil, less fried food and less dairy products. Not all children can takes dairy product as the reaction of cow's hormones in different body reacts differently, and this is harmful to especially to those child who is slow in development.
2. they need higher input/mobility - at 2.5yrs old, she needs to walk/run for about 200m a day to allows enough oxygen into the lung and brain
3. no vaccination for her if possible, during each jabs, they will input mercury into her body which cause slower intake of oxygen.
There is a introduction course once a year in singapore, in July. I would like to give it a shot and see how it can help janelle. First of all, i will need to get their books to read up about Glenn Doman wrote about brain damaged child.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
With Janelle in school
It had been a while that i sit in Janelle's class. Today i made it. It's so happy that seeing Janelle having improvement. During the OT, she managed to do things that the OT excepted her to do.. Seeing her having better response to the teachers and able to think before she acts.
After stopping for swim for about 4 weeks because of her flu. Today she is into the swimming pool. She loves it. You can heard her laughter and see her kicking and jumping in the water. That's really nice.
During the feeding, this is the first time i saw her feeding herself from fork. Just need a little help from teacher to pick up the fruits to the fork and she can bring it to her mouth and take away the fork from the mouth once she put the food in. Amd she can uses both hands. that's really very nice.
And when going down the stair, she has better balancing and knows that she need to move her hands to get the balancing. That's nice too. Next step is to let her hold on with 2 hands and come down herself. Looking forward to that.
Today, one of janelle's classmate was accompanied by his mom. Had a chat with her to find out more on how she improve her son's progress. her son is a downsyndrome child, but his improvement is so much better than Janelle. She told me she started Glenn Doman's program with him last june. within 7 months, he started to talk and can response to people. This make my interest to go and try. This program is quite expensive and not always available. Will depends on when he is coming to Singapore to hold the program. Will check it out.
After stopping for swim for about 4 weeks because of her flu. Today she is into the swimming pool. She loves it. You can heard her laughter and see her kicking and jumping in the water. That's really nice.
During the feeding, this is the first time i saw her feeding herself from fork. Just need a little help from teacher to pick up the fruits to the fork and she can bring it to her mouth and take away the fork from the mouth once she put the food in. Amd she can uses both hands. that's really very nice.
And when going down the stair, she has better balancing and knows that she need to move her hands to get the balancing. That's nice too. Next step is to let her hold on with 2 hands and come down herself. Looking forward to that.
Today, one of janelle's classmate was accompanied by his mom. Had a chat with her to find out more on how she improve her son's progress. her son is a downsyndrome child, but his improvement is so much better than Janelle. She told me she started Glenn Doman's program with him last june. within 7 months, he started to talk and can response to people. This make my interest to go and try. This program is quite expensive and not always available. Will depends on when he is coming to Singapore to hold the program. Will check it out.
First time to US
Starting of the 2011, just returned work from my brother wedding and i was assigned to go to US for a meeting. Everything are good except for the dry meeting, time different and the flight - 22hrs to US and 27hrs back to SG with flight delayed; and transited in HK/Chicago before i reach Boston, The first day on flight was my worst day in the trip from missing of visa exemption application (did my last minute application in the airport just before check in), delayed baggage when i reached US, cant find the limo person who waited for me at the departure hall instead of the arrival hall.. but things do gets better when it goes...
I made my name there in the meeting.. noone dont know who is Yvonne who sleep during the meeting. Goodness me.. everyday i'm like take power naps, about 3 to 4 hrs each night.. so tired that i fall asleep during the break time and noone wakes me up when they starts the meeting. Was in a meeting from all around the world, there are colleagues from US, Portland, mexico, Spain, China, UK. It was great to meet up with them and to link their names to faces during calls.
On Wednesday, this is the first time i encountered snow storm. it started to snow from 4am till 5pm and it build up 20" tall of snow outside. it wasnt that cold during the snowing day. The temperture starts to drop till -15degree the next day.
Days we go shopping after work, they call me shopping queen #2, i cant win the Mexican lady who was there to shop. She bought almost everything, from children clothing to bedsheet... she can spend like 7 hrs in a mall shopping where i'm done in 4 hrs time, where i spent my rest of hours enjoying the coffee, snacks in the shopping mall. Almost everynight, i will join them at the pub for a relaxing evening. It had been a while since i last seen in such relaxing mood and with nothing other than laughter - dont need to rush home for janelle, worrying if janelle she can sleep without me anot, etc etc. First time i was introduced and play the football-linto (Mexican called that) and pool. Me not bad hor, seldom into such games and i'm the winner of the night.
Each morning and night, i will use the CCTV to check on Janelle to ensure she is on a good hand with daddy and auntie. Janelle had been a good girl and seems to understand that mommy need to be away for work. She didn't cried for me, except when she heard my voice. other than that everything was ok. Hus returned to work almost everyday and leave Janelle with my mom. Thanks for my mom helping me fetching Janelle up and down from school, arranging for transportation (bro's/taxi)... ensuring she eats well and every morning, she will go market and get fresh fish just for Janelle. She always uses her un-selfishness to ease our mind and ensure our child are good in her hand when we are away for work.
I made my name there in the meeting.. noone dont know who is Yvonne who sleep during the meeting. Goodness me.. everyday i'm like take power naps, about 3 to 4 hrs each night.. so tired that i fall asleep during the break time and noone wakes me up when they starts the meeting. Was in a meeting from all around the world, there are colleagues from US, Portland, mexico, Spain, China, UK. It was great to meet up with them and to link their names to faces during calls.
On Wednesday, this is the first time i encountered snow storm. it started to snow from 4am till 5pm and it build up 20" tall of snow outside. it wasnt that cold during the snowing day. The temperture starts to drop till -15degree the next day.
Days we go shopping after work, they call me shopping queen #2, i cant win the Mexican lady who was there to shop. She bought almost everything, from children clothing to bedsheet... she can spend like 7 hrs in a mall shopping where i'm done in 4 hrs time, where i spent my rest of hours enjoying the coffee, snacks in the shopping mall. Almost everynight, i will join them at the pub for a relaxing evening. It had been a while since i last seen in such relaxing mood and with nothing other than laughter - dont need to rush home for janelle, worrying if janelle she can sleep without me anot, etc etc. First time i was introduced and play the football-linto (Mexican called that) and pool. Me not bad hor, seldom into such games and i'm the winner of the night.
Each morning and night, i will use the CCTV to check on Janelle to ensure she is on a good hand with daddy and auntie. Janelle had been a good girl and seems to understand that mommy need to be away for work. She didn't cried for me, except when she heard my voice. other than that everything was ok. Hus returned to work almost everyday and leave Janelle with my mom. Thanks for my mom helping me fetching Janelle up and down from school, arranging for transportation (bro's/taxi)... ensuring she eats well and every morning, she will go market and get fresh fish just for Janelle. She always uses her un-selfishness to ease our mind and ensure our child are good in her hand when we are away for work.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Back to work
Had been off-line from work for more then 2 weeks. Life gets very lazy and can't get the momentum of last year.
But can't continue to laze as need to go over to US for a meeting tmr. Ooo.. Think of the 20over hours of flight and all the transit just put me off this trip.
First day of work on 7jan is to farewell my boss. A colleague opened her place for the farewell. Families are invited, but I'm there alone. As hus need to work late, and don't know why just don't feel like bringing janelle there to face my colleagues. Next time bah.
Anyway, time to bucket up and get back the momentum on work. Now time is different. 新官上任三把火。
Note to myself: I want to get a Condon.
- Posted from my iPhone
But can't continue to laze as need to go over to US for a meeting tmr. Ooo.. Think of the 20over hours of flight and all the transit just put me off this trip.
First day of work on 7jan is to farewell my boss. A colleague opened her place for the farewell. Families are invited, but I'm there alone. As hus need to work late, and don't know why just don't feel like bringing janelle there to face my colleagues. Next time bah.
Anyway, time to bucket up and get back the momentum on work. Now time is different. 新官上任三把火。
Note to myself: I want to get a Condon.
- Posted from my iPhone
Friday, January 7, 2011
Brother wedding
Finally my brother wedding is over. 1night for praying + 1 day for customary + 2 night of dinner (first night is for relatives and friends, and second night is for dad's biz associate). With lots of last min changes. Although it is very tiring and things happened, but i still enjoyed myself very much.
Bride and Groom with the flower girl:
It was great, the food is good. I have my hus's niece telling me that "jiumu, next time your relative wedding must invite us, not only not brothers one... never had such a good food before on a wedding" - bird nest, lobster, shark fin, sucking pig, codfish, abalone, desert.. everyone enjoys it. Let's you have a peek of one dish I had (the lobster weighted 2KG):
The bride and groom presented their first dance:
The dance floor was crowded with guests:
My sis on the dance floor:
The most disappointed was the last min assignment from mom that cause me missed the solemnization.
I got my makeup artist of my wedding - vivi wong to do my make up for both nights:
1st night - wild look - i like this
2nd night - sweet look
- Posted from my iPhone
Bride and Groom with the flower girl:
It was great, the food is good. I have my hus's niece telling me that "jiumu, next time your relative wedding must invite us, not only not brothers one... never had such a good food before on a wedding" - bird nest, lobster, shark fin, sucking pig, codfish, abalone, desert.. everyone enjoys it. Let's you have a peek of one dish I had (the lobster weighted 2KG):
The bride and groom presented their first dance:
The dance floor was crowded with guests:
My sis on the dance floor:
The most disappointed was the last min assignment from mom that cause me missed the solemnization.
I got my makeup artist of my wedding - vivi wong to do my make up for both nights:
1st night - wild look - i like this
2nd night - sweet look
One thing brighten up my evening was that many people mistaken me as my sis.. haha... which means that i only looked like early 20s...
- Posted from my iPhone
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Happy occasion ???
All happy occasion will always turned up as a disaster on me due to my hus and janelle since 4 years ago... And more since 2 years ago
Just this year, 2011:
Because of a new year countdown, janelle refused to sleep till 2am.. Hus throw his temper and says no more countdown for her..
Because of my brother wedding, who to take care of janelle.. I have planned month ago and informed hus, and also requested mil to take leave off her work to take care of janelle in the morning. But only the day before the big day, hus turn over everything... Questioning me the plans. Had a quarreled with him over this... Last min then says, how u want me to explain to mil, my parents.
Even the tea ceremony, he says he dont understand just a min things and why he need to be around for hours. He even want me to call him only when the ceremony started, then he came over from home. And get EVERYONE to wait for him..of cos this also get us into argument
The actual day itself also had a big flight. Last min assignment from my mom which cause us not able to make it for my bro Solemnization... And janelle had a fit after a month of fit free... And janelle woke up in the mid of night crying... All these had triggered his anger again.
If time can go back to 4 years ago, I will not choose marriage. Why find a find a person to spoilt all happy occasion that's going to happen? Since I chosen this road myself, hus also is chosen by myself and for janelle, I will be strong to continue this journey.
- Posted from my iPhone
Just this year, 2011:
Because of a new year countdown, janelle refused to sleep till 2am.. Hus throw his temper and says no more countdown for her..
Because of my brother wedding, who to take care of janelle.. I have planned month ago and informed hus, and also requested mil to take leave off her work to take care of janelle in the morning. But only the day before the big day, hus turn over everything... Questioning me the plans. Had a quarreled with him over this... Last min then says, how u want me to explain to mil, my parents.
Even the tea ceremony, he says he dont understand just a min things and why he need to be around for hours. He even want me to call him only when the ceremony started, then he came over from home. And get EVERYONE to wait for him..of cos this also get us into argument
The actual day itself also had a big flight. Last min assignment from my mom which cause us not able to make it for my bro Solemnization... And janelle had a fit after a month of fit free... And janelle woke up in the mid of night crying... All these had triggered his anger again.
If time can go back to 4 years ago, I will not choose marriage. Why find a find a person to spoilt all happy occasion that's going to happen? Since I chosen this road myself, hus also is chosen by myself and for janelle, I will be strong to continue this journey.
- Posted from my iPhone
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
My little Janelle
Loving her more and more each day....
Yesterday night, she is into kissing, so she went around kissing everyone.. And she saw papa was having ice cream, she wants it, so she climbed up to daddy. Daddy says, kiss me first before I give you a slip... And she did it, for the ice cream
Isn't she lovely??
This afternoon, she fall while walking past me... Quick pick her up, and tell her it's ok.. And she look at me sadly and says "huuu huuu", everyone laughed. After I says "huu huuu", she walked away proudly.
Isn't she lovely?
- Posted from my iPhone
Yesterday night, she is into kissing, so she went around kissing everyone.. And she saw papa was having ice cream, she wants it, so she climbed up to daddy. Daddy says, kiss me first before I give you a slip... And she did it, for the ice cream
Isn't she lovely??
This afternoon, she fall while walking past me... Quick pick her up, and tell her it's ok.. And she look at me sadly and says "huuu huuu", everyone laughed. After I says "huu huuu", she walked away proudly.
Isn't she lovely?
- Posted from my iPhone
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Good Bye 2010 and Hi 2011
It's another year... 2010 ended with a nightmare.. and 2011 started with a nightmare...
At work:
2010 i have tried my best on my work.. had accepted what was assigned.. but by end of nov, after i saw the rating, i told myself no matter how hard i do for the company, noone will see it. Increment and Bonus will never up to my exception. Target for 2011: I'm ok to continue to work to enjoy the flexibility which i can have more time for Janelle. Worst in 2011 there is a re-structuring.. things are not clear till todate which gives me a very unstable feeling. Wanted to switch a job, but cant find one that allows me to work from home.
Personal:
Started off my first blogshop business... it had been about 3 months, had spent thousands and it's still in red. This is a very competitive world. Target for 2011: to make the red into profit. And let this be my main job. Marketing Marketing and Marketing
Janelle:
2010, she started going to rainbow 3 times a day, we do see her improving and now she can walk without support. Would like to see more improvement in her. Target for 2011: focus on her drooling and fine motor. Had make appointment with a doctor who studies on drooling... Will try to spent more time with her on play
At work:
2010 i have tried my best on my work.. had accepted what was assigned.. but by end of nov, after i saw the rating, i told myself no matter how hard i do for the company, noone will see it. Increment and Bonus will never up to my exception. Target for 2011: I'm ok to continue to work to enjoy the flexibility which i can have more time for Janelle. Worst in 2011 there is a re-structuring.. things are not clear till todate which gives me a very unstable feeling. Wanted to switch a job, but cant find one that allows me to work from home.
Personal:
Started off my first blogshop business... it had been about 3 months, had spent thousands and it's still in red. This is a very competitive world. Target for 2011: to make the red into profit. And let this be my main job. Marketing Marketing and Marketing
Janelle:
2010, she started going to rainbow 3 times a day, we do see her improving and now she can walk without support. Would like to see more improvement in her. Target for 2011: focus on her drooling and fine motor. Had make appointment with a doctor who studies on drooling... Will try to spent more time with her on play
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