3am
I have reached a stage when so so tired till I want to vomit... The next thoughts I have is to end my life here to get more sleep. Thoughts went wild n crazy.
Janelle why you starts the nightmare again??? Because of drugs?? Why us need to suffer like this?? I must have done something very very wrong to entitlwd this. Suffered with such a mother in law, suffered with with my girl condition. It's all started after marriage. Did I married the right man?
I know I will be fine after I have enough sleep in the morning. Not to worries
-- Post From My iPhone
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
My maid resigned...
21st January 2010, Thursday
Yesterday, when i went to the common toliet, i saw an ELLE make up bag in a plastic bag that has my maid belongings and recalled that's my sis. I called sis to confirm before i confront my maid.
In the evening, i took jx for tuina and took this chance without my mil around and asked my maid if she did take anything from my mama house, from my mom, my sis, my sil etc... she keep saying no... and i told her i want to check her bag when we returned home.. she just replied OK, you check lo.
Once i reached home, i searched her bag.. i took out the makeup bag.. of cos, initially she denied then in the end she told me yes she took and that's the only one thing she took... of cos, i listed down a few more items, and one by one she says she "BORROW".. pianz... but only one thing that she didnt admit was cash... she still denied that she took my mil money..
She had break my trust.. after a good scolding from me, i passed her a piece of paper and declare every single items she has to me now; include how many bra, how many underwear, how much cash etc.. i told her that i will do spot check anytime i want according to the list.. any items from anyone have to declare... and i leave her in her room to listdown all items while i go and clear up jx and make her to bed..
THEN, my mil went in to scold her... yes, she continued nag nag nag... and "I WANT TO GO BACK TO AGENCY" came out from my maid to MIL..
at this point of time, i'm busy at work and renovation had already make my head big.. now i had to go without a maid.. omg.. i dont know how am i going to cope.. with MIL.. worst.
Got maid also a problem... maidless also another problem... Oh dear, how come my problem is endless
Yesterday, when i went to the common toliet, i saw an ELLE make up bag in a plastic bag that has my maid belongings and recalled that's my sis. I called sis to confirm before i confront my maid.
In the evening, i took jx for tuina and took this chance without my mil around and asked my maid if she did take anything from my mama house, from my mom, my sis, my sil etc... she keep saying no... and i told her i want to check her bag when we returned home.. she just replied OK, you check lo.
Once i reached home, i searched her bag.. i took out the makeup bag.. of cos, initially she denied then in the end she told me yes she took and that's the only one thing she took... of cos, i listed down a few more items, and one by one she says she "BORROW".. pianz... but only one thing that she didnt admit was cash... she still denied that she took my mil money..
She had break my trust.. after a good scolding from me, i passed her a piece of paper and declare every single items she has to me now; include how many bra, how many underwear, how much cash etc.. i told her that i will do spot check anytime i want according to the list.. any items from anyone have to declare... and i leave her in her room to listdown all items while i go and clear up jx and make her to bed..
THEN, my mil went in to scold her... yes, she continued nag nag nag... and "I WANT TO GO BACK TO AGENCY" came out from my maid to MIL..
at this point of time, i'm busy at work and renovation had already make my head big.. now i had to go without a maid.. omg.. i dont know how am i going to cope.. with MIL.. worst.
Got maid also a problem... maidless also another problem... Oh dear, how come my problem is endless
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Carolinus
17th January 2010, Tuesday
Status of today:
Kitchen: pending for solid top
Living room lights are up:
Study room
This is where the router will be:
Mbr wardrobe
Status of today:
Kitchen: pending for solid top
Living room lights are up:
Study room
This is where the router will be:
Mbr wardrobe
Janelle's updates
19th January 2010, Tuesday
Now Janelle is 17 months...
When she woke up in the morning, she pull off my blanket and wake me up asking for mum-mum; which is milk.
When she saw her milk, she will laugh, and quicky lie down to her bed waiting for her to feed her.
but if she saw saw walk away with her milk, she will cry.
She can steps out to move with support, she can steps up stairs with support. (more improvement is required)
when we talked to her, she can response us with her baby words...
she can move her butt slowly, bit by bit to reach out for toys that was place about 1m away from her.
she started to scream at high pits..
her seizure wasnt good... she used to have to 10 days once, then was 7 days once, then 5 days, 3 days; we then quicky up her dosage before the seizure went hywire again... haiz..
have moved the therapy session to twice a month as her development gap seems to be bigger now. will remain at 2x a month till put her into EIPIC
Now Janelle is 17 months...
When she woke up in the morning, she pull off my blanket and wake me up asking for mum-mum; which is milk.
When she saw her milk, she will laugh, and quicky lie down to her bed waiting for her to feed her.
but if she saw saw walk away with her milk, she will cry.
She can steps out to move with support, she can steps up stairs with support. (more improvement is required)
when we talked to her, she can response us with her baby words...
she can move her butt slowly, bit by bit to reach out for toys that was place about 1m away from her.
she started to scream at high pits..
her seizure wasnt good... she used to have to 10 days once, then was 7 days once, then 5 days, 3 days; we then quicky up her dosage before the seizure went hywire again... haiz..
have moved the therapy session to twice a month as her development gap seems to be bigger now. will remain at 2x a month till put her into EIPIC
Keep MIL away??
19th January 2010, Tuesday
My thoughts was moving out can keep my MIL away.. no more scolding, no more nagging, no more 发号施令 but i'm wrong..
Yesterday, she told me she 不放心 janelle to be taken care by maid and when i working, so she want to move in with us on weekdays.. and weekend she will return to yishun.. oh my god!!!
and this morning, she went out to buy kitchen items for my new house.. omg... big big knifes, washing board, ugly containers for sugar/salt.. then she asked me to bring over her old kettle and those old water bottle.. worst, she ask me dont need to buy bowls and plates, bring over from here... pianz, those chicken logo bowls and those different different design of plates.. all doesnt fit into my house theme... help me!!!
My thoughts was moving out can keep my MIL away.. no more scolding, no more nagging, no more 发号施令 but i'm wrong..
Yesterday, she told me she 不放心 janelle to be taken care by maid and when i working, so she want to move in with us on weekdays.. and weekend she will return to yishun.. oh my god!!!
and this morning, she went out to buy kitchen items for my new house.. omg... big big knifes, washing board, ugly containers for sugar/salt.. then she asked me to bring over her old kettle and those old water bottle.. worst, she ask me dont need to buy bowls and plates, bring over from here... pianz, those chicken logo bowls and those different different design of plates.. all doesnt fit into my house theme... help me!!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Sick leave for 2 days
15th jan 2010, Friday
Was down with flu from wed n doc gave me 2 day mc to rest. Wed, I sleep thru the day and wake up by jx at 3am and wasn't able to get back to sleep. So woke up n check emails n finished my work. Went back for a nap at 6am. Nevertheless, we went for my ah ma birthday celebration at bottle tree, and went salon to pass a gift to sil but was hold back till 12am because of the water pile stuck n helping them to monitor the drain while has was there to help up. Lucky, hus sent jx back home n rest first before he fetch me back from dinner.
On thrusday, feeling so much better after the long nap in the day, so brought jx for doc appt. As usual, need to increase jx dosage till she is seizure free. Still a long way to go.
After which, dropped by punggol to check on the status of renovating. They went installing the toliet Feature. And to confirm the curtain. Then went for the appt with fengshui master you, to get move in dates which our parents insist. He gave us about 7dates, before and also after Chinese new year.
This morning, I asked my mil to choose a date for us. Heee, my hus says am very tricky, as my intention is for her tp choose the date to move out, this will avoid later words come out from her mouth or if it too early, she tot I want to move out asap. :)
She choose 10 feb 2010. Which is the same date as what I had shortlisted. She says, next year is year of tiger, better avoid, so move before Chinese new year. And on the list of dates, 10th feb is the last dates given for before cny. Just need to return in cny eve for dinner n first day of ny. I will take her words.
Still need to arrange for mover n to get furniture fir living room. Busy weekend ahead.
-- Post From My iPhone
Was down with flu from wed n doc gave me 2 day mc to rest. Wed, I sleep thru the day and wake up by jx at 3am and wasn't able to get back to sleep. So woke up n check emails n finished my work. Went back for a nap at 6am. Nevertheless, we went for my ah ma birthday celebration at bottle tree, and went salon to pass a gift to sil but was hold back till 12am because of the water pile stuck n helping them to monitor the drain while has was there to help up. Lucky, hus sent jx back home n rest first before he fetch me back from dinner.
On thrusday, feeling so much better after the long nap in the day, so brought jx for doc appt. As usual, need to increase jx dosage till she is seizure free. Still a long way to go.
After which, dropped by punggol to check on the status of renovating. They went installing the toliet Feature. And to confirm the curtain. Then went for the appt with fengshui master you, to get move in dates which our parents insist. He gave us about 7dates, before and also after Chinese new year.
This morning, I asked my mil to choose a date for us. Heee, my hus says am very tricky, as my intention is for her tp choose the date to move out, this will avoid later words come out from her mouth or if it too early, she tot I want to move out asap. :)
She choose 10 feb 2010. Which is the same date as what I had shortlisted. She says, next year is year of tiger, better avoid, so move before Chinese new year. And on the list of dates, 10th feb is the last dates given for before cny. Just need to return in cny eve for dinner n first day of ny. I will take her words.
Still need to arrange for mover n to get furniture fir living room. Busy weekend ahead.
-- Post From My iPhone
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Timeline of renovation on Punggol - Coralinus
26 Dec 09 - sourcing for contractor
30 Dec 09 - Keys collection
31 Dec 09 - confirmed contractor + door opening ceremony
01 Jan 10 - brain storming and design our dream home
02 Jan 10 - confirmed design (still got some changes when i had new ideas)
03 Jan 10 - purchase of lighting (spend 1k)
05 Jan 10 - Air Con Upz
06 Jan 10 - purchase of ceiling fan ($180) + 3x wall fans ($155) + 2x 707 heater ($425) (spend $760)
07 Jan 10 - electrical rewiring (spend $400)
09 Jan 10 - CCTV wiring upz (spend $430) + kitchen cabinent base n washer base is up.
11 Jan 10 - Kitchen door and citigas piping are upz
12 Jan 10 - False Ceiling Upz
14 Jan 10 - toliets featured n water heater upz
16 Jan 10 - painting upz + bits and pieces of cabinent reached the house (not yet install) + purchase of sofa, dinning table (spend 2K)
17 Jan 10 - cabinent installed... pending for some touch up..
next.. window grill and touch up
30 Dec 09 - Keys collection
31 Dec 09 - confirmed contractor + door opening ceremony
01 Jan 10 - brain storming and design our dream home
02 Jan 10 - confirmed design (still got some changes when i had new ideas)
03 Jan 10 - purchase of lighting (spend 1k)
05 Jan 10 - Air Con Upz
06 Jan 10 - purchase of ceiling fan ($180) + 3x wall fans ($155) + 2x 707 heater ($425) (spend $760)
07 Jan 10 - electrical rewiring (spend $400)
09 Jan 10 - CCTV wiring upz (spend $430) + kitchen cabinent base n washer base is up.
11 Jan 10 - Kitchen door and citigas piping are upz
12 Jan 10 - False Ceiling Upz
14 Jan 10 - toliets featured n water heater upz
16 Jan 10 - painting upz + bits and pieces of cabinent reached the house (not yet install) + purchase of sofa, dinning table (spend 2K)
17 Jan 10 - cabinent installed... pending for some touch up..
next.. window grill and touch up
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Physio
05th Jan 2010, Tuesday
yesterday afternoon, i took off to bring janelle for physio.
according to the therapist, janelle can stand better but her left leg since not in her control, always will go on awkard position.
1. let her stand more, especially on her left leg.
2. more ball practice, need her to have more control on upper body so that she wouldnt throw back for often
will be going to therapist session these months, as janelle delay gap is getting bigger and bigger.
had arrange for 2x a month till we can get into EIPIC.
Therapy had put a remark to recommend for EIPIC, and yesterday night, we received the call from social worker saying that doctor had give her approval and 2 weeks later i should be receiving calls from the center.
yesterday afternoon, i took off to bring janelle for physio.
according to the therapist, janelle can stand better but her left leg since not in her control, always will go on awkard position.
1. let her stand more, especially on her left leg.
2. more ball practice, need her to have more control on upper body so that she wouldnt throw back for often
will be going to therapist session these months, as janelle delay gap is getting bigger and bigger.
had arrange for 2x a month till we can get into EIPIC.
Therapy had put a remark to recommend for EIPIC, and yesterday night, we received the call from social worker saying that doctor had give her approval and 2 weeks later i should be receiving calls from the center.
Moving out...
05th Janurany 2010, Tuesday
Sunday, hus sil called and asked me not to move out as mil no more angry.. my reply was simple "i dont want to wait till she use broom to chase us away".. so we are very firmed that we are moving out.
Yesterday, ahboy's mama dropped by, and my mil as usual complaint to her.. so when we are in the living room, ahboy's mama asked me about our punngol flat. "decided to move out ah" and in front of her and my mil, i told them "yes, we are moving out.. and will be before chinese new year... everything had lockdown and now is WIP." my mil reply "why need to rush?" i keep quiet and play with janelle.. after janelle lunch, bring her into the room to change her clothes while they are outside in the living continue to says bad about us.. when i went out to take something, my mil immediately keep quiet.. haiz... overheard them saying that it is all our fault.. etc etc.. but who cares.. mil was telling ahboy mama how "wei da" she is to cook for us, to take care of janelle.. etc..
then yesterday night, when i was playing with janelle, my mil goes again, giving her comments again.. you have to do this.. not that... i let janelle stands on her own, she insist to carried janelle over and let janelle lie on her while standing... haiz.. i'm telling myself, hate this monent, i want to move out.. cant wait to move out...
looking back, for the past 2 weeks, indeed without my mil, janelle had bigger improvement. but definately, mummy had gives more training time to her too.. think moving forward, will need to be more forcus.. as i need to take care of janelle meals, our meals, maid and janelle.. also need to work.. can i cope??
Sunday, hus sil called and asked me not to move out as mil no more angry.. my reply was simple "i dont want to wait till she use broom to chase us away".. so we are very firmed that we are moving out.
Yesterday, ahboy's mama dropped by, and my mil as usual complaint to her.. so when we are in the living room, ahboy's mama asked me about our punngol flat. "decided to move out ah" and in front of her and my mil, i told them "yes, we are moving out.. and will be before chinese new year... everything had lockdown and now is WIP." my mil reply "why need to rush?" i keep quiet and play with janelle.. after janelle lunch, bring her into the room to change her clothes while they are outside in the living continue to says bad about us.. when i went out to take something, my mil immediately keep quiet.. haiz... overheard them saying that it is all our fault.. etc etc.. but who cares.. mil was telling ahboy mama how "wei da" she is to cook for us, to take care of janelle.. etc..
then yesterday night, when i was playing with janelle, my mil goes again, giving her comments again.. you have to do this.. not that... i let janelle stands on her own, she insist to carried janelle over and let janelle lie on her while standing... haiz.. i'm telling myself, hate this monent, i want to move out.. cant wait to move out...
looking back, for the past 2 weeks, indeed without my mil, janelle had bigger improvement. but definately, mummy had gives more training time to her too.. think moving forward, will need to be more forcus.. as i need to take care of janelle meals, our meals, maid and janelle.. also need to work.. can i cope??
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Some updates for Janelle
1st January 2010, Friday
To start off a new year, let me recap on what janelle can do
Now, janelle is 16.5 months old...
She started to talk a day ago, calling mama, mum-mum and ti..
she started to throw herself towards pillow or me and on 4 point position.. but yet to crawl..
She started to baby talk abt a month ago, and now if we adult chats without her involvement, she will interrupt us by her baby talks..
she started to give us a pity look (closing her eyes and o shaped her lips - act pity) when we scold her.
she started to sleep through the nights - 10pm/11pm to 6am (some days she will wake up at abt 5am)
however her fits still happens once every week..
now, she is having tuina twice a week, monthly consultation at KKH, once a month consultation to therapist at KKH and daily 2x a day drugs intake
still upping her dosage of drug as we target for 0 seizure..
Friday, January 1, 2010
open door to our home
31st december 2009, thursday
main door:
view from our living room:
Kitchen:
master bedroom:
before i can takes more, the contractor knocked.
In the late afternoon, about 3pm, we went up for the open door ceremony to our home at punggol. we brought along fruits - pineapple (旺來）apples（平安）orange（大吉）bananas（招財), this is according to the fengshui book by you rong zi.. :) to get a good head start for our very first home. Once we went into our home, i went to open up the windows to let the air circular. And the next moment, someone is at our doorway knocking on our door.. the contractor who wants to get our deal..
We went to talk to him and bargain again on the pricing.. somehow kogan had confirmed to take him up but just the pricing that need to be negotiate.. after another 1 hrs... we locked down the deal at 17K in additional items - shower screen and cabinets for the master bedroom toilet. My next headache is the design..
contractor - confirmed
check defects - 10% done
design - 80% done
lighting - 80% done
features - 70% done
furniture - 0%
electric appliance - 0%
and here's some raw photos of our home...
main door:
view from our living room:
Kitchen:
master bedroom:
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