Sunday, June 7, 2009

Run away from home?

After coming to 2 weeks of seizure-free, Janelle had the first seizure this morning. My heart and hope dropped to the rock bottom.

Throughout the whole morning, my mil face was black. She and kogan started to quarrel again in front of Janelle before i put her in for morning nap, and once she settled in for her morning nap, she had seizure. Sometime i wonder what's wrong with these 2 person and if JX seizure impacted by them? One day with no quarrel will killed either one of them. haiz... sometime i really don't understand those old people too, when her son see that she is not feeling well and want to bring her back to the specialist again, she throw a huge temper and insist to change to those cheap doctor.. when we keep quiet and ignore her, she complaints to ppl that we don't bother, we didnt care for her. How to be a good son and daughter in law?

And she want ppl to listen to her, she likes to give command.. this morning she give me more than one instruction but i just ignore:
1. she went market and bought breakfast for us, then she asked me to give jx some noodle, i say dont want, cos it is too salty.. then she replied never mind, she need to learn how to eat.. i ignored
2. after janelle mornning clear up, i put her in the bumbo chair instead of lying her on the mattress. she ask me to carry her to sit on the matteress and not to the chair... i replied, i want to read newspaper and ignored her.
3. when i reading my papers, she says "today is 15th, faster go and do jx things, later forget again.. i'm so pissed off then .. so i replied "wait till i finish my papers first", ignored her.
4. want to bring janelle back to the room for monring nap, she ask me again "faster go and take the namecard of the chinese phys i want to go and see him, not feeling very good".. i did, i put janelle back to the chair and go and get her the namecard
5. when carrying janelle back to the room with no single words from me. she goes again "you have to carry sideway" ignored and continue to walk to my room

see, just a morning, and it is within 1 hr from the point she back from market at 930am till janelle nap time 10.30am, she can gave me 5 comments.... i can see that her face is getting darker and darker till black lo..

At this point of time, i really wish that i can carry Janelle and run away from this home. sick of all these nonsense. I just want to have some peaceful days.. no quarrel, no temper and dont need to see ppl face, no command and live..

1 comment:

  1. Hey mummy, press on. I don't have a good impression of ur mil too. I think she should just keep her opinions to herself. If I'm u, I think I would have lose my temper long ago already and tell her to "Shut the f*** up!"

    I think the quarrels are really affecting Janelle. What she needs is a happy and peaceful environment. I hope things will get better for her and you.

    Jia you!!

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