Sausage lip

Don't know what's wrong with #msjanelle, woke up with sausage lip.

missy says its not allergy cos one side is much swollen then the other. So we guessed is insert bites… but what can be on her bed? she loves putting hands into her mouth, so i blame all to the germs on her fingers.  

Twitching On Left Side of cheek

My upper left cheek below my eye had been twitching for a week and still ongoing. initially didn't really care about it till i can feel abit of numbness on my cheek. And my colleague told me it can be a symptoms of stroke as his uncle had the same experiences before. That's scared me off to see a doctor immediately.

I went to my family doctor (western doctor), he just says "monitor" if the numbness affects your talking then go to A&E immediately as it is a stroke else just need to monitor. That's all he says, no medicines given and nothing else and i paid a $28 for consultation..

Then I also went to see TCM, she says it is due to stress, anxiety and not enough sleep that causes nerves to expand and hitting against each other. Nothing to worry as this is normal when your body is under stress and not enough sleep. She advised that all i need to do is to take rest and have a good sleep, and don't need to go under needles which had been praying not to. :-> i'm scare of needles. :)

Take Care.

I have not accepted...

When doctor from child development says 'nothing will change' and my tears just flows.. I knew that I have not accepted Janelle being special. Deep inside my heart i'm fighting... praying for miracle and hoping for improvment every day. Just developmental delay and not intellectual disabled.

Back to movie..

After 6 years, finally stepping into cinema for movies again. I used to love catching movies, at least once every week with my movie buddy - not my husband cos he said that watching movie is a waste of $ and time activity - till i have janelle.

My movie buddy dated me and there we go.. hus stay home taking care of janelle and mommy catching  GOZILLA. The world most famous monster is back, reminds of the old gorilla we watch when we are kids. Since it had been a while i been to movie, i wanted to eat popcorns, nachos, hotdog bun… My friend laughed at me having buffet in the cinema. :P

 

Facebook blessing

Recently I saw some posts on the facebook where mommies giving out items to truely bless others but some is hanging goat head selling dog meat.

There is this mummy who says 'to bless' the unused diapper and just need $2 for postage and handling fee.. but she limited each mommy to 2 pcs only.. which means $1 per pc of diaper. Thats 100% more of its org price. And best of all, strictly no meet up.. which means you have to pay cant get it for free even she is your neighbor. Whats iconic is that there are 20over comments to be "bless" for this 2 pcs diaper. 

Is this a sincere blessing? 

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Motherhood

May is a month celebrating mother's day…

Motherhood in my dictionary is an extreme tough journey that once u stepped in there is no u-turn. After i became a mother, then i know that how tough it is.

The joy of motherhood is to see your children grew up healthy and smart and on the righteous path. The pain of motherhood is to see your children suffering in sickness , not able to learn and talking the wrong path. Guess, 90% of my motherhood is in the pain and nightmare.

Before Janelle, I have never been to hospital and hardly see doctor. After having Janelle, in and out clinic and hospital had becomes a routine. Before Janelle, I live in dreams and hope, after Janelle I live in a hopeless land don't know what's next to come. After knowing God, I live in faith and prayers.

Baby sis told me one day that pop shared with her that he really really hope that I can have #2. I would love to but I'm guess i don't have the courage and energy. Janelle don't put on weight, i get the blame. Janelle fall sick and admitted to hospital, i get the blame. Janelle is a routine baby where i gave her play, eat, sleep at the same time everyday cos she doesnt know how to express herself, yet i get the blame of dont know how to take care if children. When Janelle first have seizure, I get blame, blaming me never take care of myself during pregnancy. Drink cold water, eat dont know what banana or eating lamb. Every time Janelle went into seizure I feel so helpless. The sleepless nights to take care of her is driving me up the wall each time. Other than maid, no other helper available I can reply on for me time, don't even say a date with hus. Complaints put aside, all these are secondary. The most important is that no one can guarantee that #2 would be a normal child. What if the 2nd one is the same as Janelle? We seriously can't take 2nd blow, and don't want to loss any hope in this world.

There are countless of time, our conversation has "If janelle is normal child," …. there are many we would like to do… like having meals out, meeting up with friends, family dinners, babies gathering, birthday parties, going shopping, doing traveling together etc etc. What is lifestyle? i don't know. thru blogs, fb and instagram, i see the world but i can't feel the world.

If Janelle is normal child, what would i get for Mother's Day?