A short trip

Sianz. Told him so many times that I can't go away these mths. And after this huge quarrel, he still don't get it. I can't says don't help pop at this time as there is not HR personnel. I need to ensure that 150 workers get pay. I need to ensure that Work permits, cpf issues are handled. Also HP also having peak period, changed of mgr and restructuring.. every thing is to be done by myself, no resources and mgmt don't trust hub and wants us to monitor them.. Everynight i already work till i cry. And now he is asking to go for a short break with janelle. I have no idea how I can reject him. I know when I do so, there's will be be a huge quarrel again. if I don't, don't know how many nights of midnight oil I need to burn. I know he is out of goodwill wants to org a family trip. I have been asking for such trips since last year, which he keep delayed. Now when I rushing for time, he ask me to go off. How I wish I have 48 hrs a day or there is 2 Yvonne.

God, pls grant me more candidates for HR exec and I can confirm them soon. Pls speed up my pop hiring process. Haiz, when dismiss a staff, he can do so within a day. When hiring person he drag and drag, it takes months. I'm very tired especially when I'm in a sandwiched.


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Mother's Day Special

Was at my mom's place yesterday evening to pick up Janelle and i overheard J telephone conversation with her mom.
J: "Mommy, Tomorrow are you free? Can you come to my school because i have a mother day's performance for you in school."
M: "I have to work. Cannot go."
And J put down the phone and sit at the stairs alone.. looking very sad. i see tears in her eyes. My heart *ouch*. I gave her my promised that gugu will be there to see her performance and i can see her smile again.

When she saw my mom and me walked into the classroom, she was so excitied.

mother's day gift to mommy

and the performance:
my mom and me tears when we saw this peformance. It's so touching, i waiting for Janelle to perform to me. why there are ppl dont know how to appreciate when they have the chance.

Stressed up

After all the hilo last weekend, this week i had been very stress up and tired - mentally and physically.

So many things on my plate:
- this week is doing transitions from the HR exec who worked with dad for 10 yrs.
- hiring on behalf of dad which i cant wait any longer.
- cracking my brain for a win win solution and how face my hus when he is back next week. this is stressing me mentally.
- HP work load, still managable.. but might need to spent a couple of late night to complete those operational and backlog.

lucky this week janelle had been good girl. She sleeps well, eat well, enjoyed her school and at enjoyed my mom place. Thanks sweeties.. Mommy love you.

keep telling myself, ignore what's approaching.. i can do it.. i just need to hold it firm for 1 more months, and when new HR exec comes in, i can be step down. but the next one month will be horrible, no HR around...

Special delivery

I had a suprise gift this morning, special delivery of eclairs to my door steps from A.
she made my day. Thank you very much A. I love you!!!!

Everyone had sided him

Dad says I had over reacted... Dad says he did it because he love me, he doesn't wants to see me so stress up

Bro says if him, he will also do the same to dad for his wife

Mom says, he heart pain seeing me working so hard..

Maybe I should think it this way too.. So I'm can feel better and put this behind. He is away for 2 weeks, guess both of us can calm down before the next meet up.


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My little sweeties

Still very upset what had happened yesterday. When think of it, my tears will flow down uncontrollable.

This morning, janelle saw me crying on the sofa talking to my in law over the phone. she came beside me and cry, cry even louder than me.. Haaa.. This girl ah.


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Marriage

Marriage is definitely not belongs to 2 person, it's 2 families. when he doesn't respect and support what my family is. Can this relationship continue?

I have always thought I managed my time very well. Monday to Friday I will clear my HP work as much and as fast as I could. I will bring jx to school, to treatment, to doc follows up and therapies if any. Sat I spend my morning with my hus and jx (have a breakfast, go to the farm) before I went in to pop company to clear those impt HR stuff and payroll. Sunday and public holiday I will make sure I spent my time with jx. When hus not around, then will spend time with my family. But not sure what's he not happy abt.

Today he turned my family upside down. He words had hurt my dad, mom , the 3kids and me to the max. I run away from home as I don't wish to flight infront of my family and make them worried. I have no face to face anyone of them. I'm ashamed of what he did. I called his Sis to go over my mom place to bring him away before more ppl is hurt by his words from his temper. Can't wait for tmr to come and he will be far far away from us and we can breath.

Had some time by myself to sort things out. But I still can't figure out why he want to do this to hurt me.. Don't he love me? Don't he understand why I want to do this?? Upset and disappointed to the max.