It had been a year... me in a relationship with Jesus for a year now. This journey is amazing, he showed me miracle, he planted different people beside me, he guided me and giving me strength to breeze through every of the day he created. Everyday thanking God how great he is.
of cos, i have to admit that my faith are not always that strong, especially when Janelle is having fits once again. He showed me the miracle yet he allows the enemy to intrude into our life once again. When i'm once again down with depression, he give me strength to sort things out one by one and for those beyond my control, He take care of it for me. He gave vision to a sister in Christ to pray for us, to call me ensure i'm ok. Because i didnt even know her at that time, i didn't shared with her what i was going through, and responded with "we are fine". He showed me my situation on a friend of me, gave me clear messages, guided me and leaded me. He is so real.
He answered my prayers and gave me with even more than i had requested. Everyday, i trying to spend 15 to 30 min quiet time in the morning to read the bible and trying to spend about 15-30 min after work, sitting down with janelle worshipping Him.. You will never fail to see my smile on me when seeing Janelle singing "Jesus love me, yes i know". We are blessed. God is never late, and i strongly believe that Janelle is the chosen one to glorify Him.
One of the biggest changes i see in myself is i know i'm no longer alone and i know i can turn to him with every and any kind of questions. No more crying alone under the pillow asking how how how..what can i do more... Now i will turn to Him, throw him the tough questions and wait patiently for His guidance. Meditate on His word and I can feel peace and go to bed every night. God who loves me so much that He willingly send His son Jesus to die for me on the cross, and who abundantly gives. He is the one who created everything, He is the One who created me, and because of that i can rest assure in His love.