Blessed with sweetie

Every night, we will put Janelle to bed in her bed but she will climbed up to my bed in the middle of night, and sleep beside me. When she opened her eye and saw me, she will greet me with her smile that melts everything and made my day. So sweet.

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Janelle's first year end concert

This year at St Gerard's School, teachers informed me that Janelle is going to take part in the year end concert. I was so excited and looking forward to it. Knowing Janelle is someone who cannot sit still nor follow instructions without constant reminder, I was so worried for her. Had been praying for her.

Only towards near concert day, teacher confirmed her role as a Queen and the goal for her is to be able to sit still for 7 to 10 min with the crown on her head. I was like, oh dear.., sitting still.. Hmm crown.. Hmmm and what I can do was pray for her

Despite how expensive the tickets were, I bought 4 tickets brought my mil and helper along to witness Janelle's first concert. When we reached the concert hall at Dover ITE, there are photos taken during their preparation of this day greeting us.






Tried to put on make up for her, but the powder just don't stay on her. Flawless skin :)











Janelle did sit down quietly throughout her performance watching her classmates who are the normal children dance. But she took off her crown even before the performance start. I know she did it. She did one of the major goal teacher had set for her.

I went in with high hope, but after watching the performance, actually I was disappointed. In my heart, there was just an unknown call saying, is this only what my girl can do? Why my girl wasn't the one who dance? What a mom am I, did dress her up, did put on enough makeup.

I know she can do better next year. Looking forward for the next one.

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Good Morning

A simple "good morning" from her made my day. I thank God for her breakthrough. More to come..

I have so much to blog, but don't have the time..

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"Let go"

A friend of mine told me "You are too protective to Janelle. Need to let go of her to let her grow. Don't take special needs as an excuse."

Am I?

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Do I looked like a burger?

No matter is at work or personal life, there are people keep telling me don't give them pressure, give them time. Haiz. Do u think I wish to give them stress, stress is coming top down.. I'm just like the piece of meat that's in btw the burger :( it's look great and delicious to outside world but the process of making this piece of meat is not easy. Kanna minced, marinated, shaped, buttered up and down, and put of the hot plate to be cooked.

I can do my very best to all roles I'm in. I only has this big of bandwidth.

I pray:




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Testimony to God's Love

I would like to share our little Testimony to God's Love.

During the house blessing session, one of the elder asked if anyone in this house is suffering from migraine. Not me, Not my husband and Not my helper, so i guess maybe is Janelle. Pastor and Elders had prayed for Janelle. At that time i was still in doubt.. Is it Janelle? So young? migraine? But at times she will tried to pull her hair left side? Doctor did mentioned that janelle's seems to have more activities and the seizures starts from her left size of brain. Lots of Q&A running though my mind.

3 weeks later after the house blessing, In church, after the service, Pastor asked if there is a lady, particularly a lady who is suffering from migraine, he would like to invite her to the stage and he wants to pray for her. I was rushing off to fetch Janelle from Sunday class as the service had been over run, hence didn't put it on heart. However, on our way home, the scene of pastor on stage asking for the lady came back to my mind.. Was keep thinking of it.. suddenly it strikes me.. Its for my Janelle.. i almost wanted to U-turn and bring Janelle to Pastor, i recalled that i saw a healing session from NCC, not necessary to have pastor to pray for you. is your faith that heal you. So i turned to janelle... "Janelle, I believe this message is for you.. God wants you to be healed. BE HEALED in jesus's name. amen". From then on, no seizure :)

A month later, which is abt 2 months ago, i had a vision that i can start to drop the drug.. but vision wor.. it's so new to me, so i asked God for confirmation. "God if this is what you want me to do, let my husband come and tell me." And that noon, hus called to discuss with me about Janelle drug and if we can start to plan for reduction. That's how amazing of our Lord, isn't it. :) we started stepping down on nitrozepem by quarter tablet every 2 weeks. We have been told by a couple of doctors that nitrozepem contains sleeping elements in it, it will cause addiction and this is not a long term drug to be used. We tried dropping this drug before, twice, Janelle condition got worst. So Janelle had been on this drug 3 years. Thank God, till yesterday night we have completely dropped nitrozepem. First 2 step down was ok.. The third step down, Janelle started with startle in her sleep and waking up at 3am every night. one sister from healing room told me to read her pslam 91, and we did. the startle and waking up at 3am goes off after a week. Praise the Lord. Hus and helper asked me to hold my horses, and continue to monitor. Monitored for a month and plus, and I feel that God has healed Janelle, she no longer need these drug. And yesterday night, I took the next step down and completely drop nitrozepem.

She is still having one more drug and will be dropping it real soon.

3 months, with stepping down of drugs, janelle is not having any episode.. God had healed Janelle. Praise the Lord.

3 months, there are many improvements in her. She started to call 姨姨，舅舅，奶奶, 姐姐，kaka，daddy except mummy. She started to take instruction, she started to be able to sit down and wait patiently, she started to imitated our words, she started to ask me who? What's that? She started to recognize words (her name) and colour (blue). And lots more to come..

This is how great our Lord..
Hareluya, all glory to God..

Fine motor skill

Teaching Janelle how to use her fingers to tear newspapers, a way to train her fine motor skill.




And this is what I got after ah hour.




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