Our yearly event - Boxing Day

Mom birthday falls on boxing day so we have our yearly Xmas exchange session + mom birthday together on the day.

Due to some work on hand to clear, no choice but had to log into my laptop. Once in, its just drag.. and missed our facial session with my mom. :( Planned a steamboat session and met my mom for groceries shopping after work. Spent about $100+ for steamboat for 13pax. But last minutes received a call from pop for uncle leong's crab. Keep all steamboat food into fridge, and four cars headed down to uncle Leong. This is how efficient our family is when heard of crabs.



This year we had angel and mortal gift exchange. I'm the angel of my 2 brothers and nephew. Tough choice :)



Another family photo without us. Because of Janelle, in order not to stress her for her night rest, we need to left early as usual. But mom had enjoyed herself. That's good enough le.

May they be blessed with God.

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Joke of the day

Baby sis wanted to cook my mom fav dish - Gu Lu You
She sent me a message to get the ingredients for her since I'm going to supermarket.
Here's her message:




After looking thru the list, did you find something missing? Missing the most important pork.. Lol.




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"4 years and its enough"

About 2 weeks ago, Janelle didn't have good nights rest, as a result she disturbed papa mama night rest too. When husband told me "4 years and its enough, time to let her sleep with helper". My heart hurts... Feel that he is talking Janelle away from me just because he want to sleep more. To protect Janelle from the caning in the middle of night and let HIM has his night sleep, I give it a try.

First night and Second night, I didn't sleep till 4am, missing janelle and wondering if the temp OK? Does she wake up? Does she sleep well.

Third night and she is back sleeping beside me :) cos its a weekend. But this plans doesn't work out for long as when she sleep with maid, she can sleep throughout the night, or will sleep very quickly after night feed. Sleep with me, she can't, she will want to play with me in the middle of night. :( making hus very angry and there goes...

Now, only when hus is out if town, Janelle will be sleeping with me. Otherwise, she will be in maid room. In order to ease helper workload, started to offload and help her on cleaning up and taking care of Janelle.

Our first Christmas Tree

Our very first Christmas tree is up. Wanted a bigger tree, but hus stopped me.. Will upgrade the tree when time goes :)





Guess who is the busiest of all?




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Gan Jing Xuan. Who?

Today, started to teach Janelle her name.

Mummy: What's your name?
JX: Janelle
Mummy: Gan Jing Xuan
JX: who?

:) so cute... Thank God, Waited for 4 years and I can now laugh at her reply like all blessed mummy out there. All Glory to God.


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Blessed with sweetie

Every night, we will put Janelle to bed in her bed but she will climbed up to my bed in the middle of night, and sleep beside me. When she opened her eye and saw me, she will greet me with her smile that melts everything and made my day. So sweet.

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Janelle's first year end concert

This year at St Gerard's School, teachers informed me that Janelle is going to take part in the year end concert. I was so excited and looking forward to it. Knowing Janelle is someone who cannot sit still nor follow instructions without constant reminder, I was so worried for her. Had been praying for her.

Only towards near concert day, teacher confirmed her role as a Queen and the goal for her is to be able to sit still for 7 to 10 min with the crown on her head. I was like, oh dear.., sitting still.. Hmm crown.. Hmmm and what I can do was pray for her

Despite how expensive the tickets were, I bought 4 tickets brought my mil and helper along to witness Janelle's first concert. When we reached the concert hall at Dover ITE, there are photos taken during their preparation of this day greeting us.






Tried to put on make up for her, but the powder just don't stay on her. Flawless skin :)











Janelle did sit down quietly throughout her performance watching her classmates who are the normal children dance. But she took off her crown even before the performance start. I know she did it. She did one of the major goal teacher had set for her.

I went in with high hope, but after watching the performance, actually I was disappointed. In my heart, there was just an unknown call saying, is this only what my girl can do? Why my girl wasn't the one who dance? What a mom am I, did dress her up, did put on enough makeup.

I know she can do better next year. Looking forward for the next one.

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Good Morning

A simple "good morning" from her made my day. I thank God for her breakthrough. More to come..

I have so much to blog, but don't have the time..

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"Let go"

A friend of mine told me "You are too protective to Janelle. Need to let go of her to let her grow. Don't take special needs as an excuse."

Am I?

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Do I looked like a burger?

No matter is at work or personal life, there are people keep telling me don't give them pressure, give them time. Haiz. Do u think I wish to give them stress, stress is coming top down.. I'm just like the piece of meat that's in btw the burger :( it's look great and delicious to outside world but the process of making this piece of meat is not easy. Kanna minced, marinated, shaped, buttered up and down, and put of the hot plate to be cooked.

I can do my very best to all roles I'm in. I only has this big of bandwidth.

I pray:




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Testimony to God's Love

I would like to share our little Testimony to God's Love.

During the house blessing session, one of the elder asked if anyone in this house is suffering from migraine. Not me, Not my husband and Not my helper, so i guess maybe is Janelle. Pastor and Elders had prayed for Janelle. At that time i was still in doubt.. Is it Janelle? So young? migraine? But at times she will tried to pull her hair left side? Doctor did mentioned that janelle's seems to have more activities and the seizures starts from her left size of brain. Lots of Q&A running though my mind.

3 weeks later after the house blessing, In church, after the service, Pastor asked if there is a lady, particularly a lady who is suffering from migraine, he would like to invite her to the stage and he wants to pray for her. I was rushing off to fetch Janelle from Sunday class as the service had been over run, hence didn't put it on heart. However, on our way home, the scene of pastor on stage asking for the lady came back to my mind.. Was keep thinking of it.. suddenly it strikes me.. Its for my Janelle.. i almost wanted to U-turn and bring Janelle to Pastor, i recalled that i saw a healing session from NCC, not necessary to have pastor to pray for you. is your faith that heal you. So i turned to janelle... "Janelle, I believe this message is for you.. God wants you to be healed. BE HEALED in jesus's name. amen". From then on, no seizure :)

A month later, which is abt 2 months ago, i had a vision that i can start to drop the drug.. but vision wor.. it's so new to me, so i asked God for confirmation. "God if this is what you want me to do, let my husband come and tell me." And that noon, hus called to discuss with me about Janelle drug and if we can start to plan for reduction. That's how amazing of our Lord, isn't it. :) we started stepping down on nitrozepem by quarter tablet every 2 weeks. We have been told by a couple of doctors that nitrozepem contains sleeping elements in it, it will cause addiction and this is not a long term drug to be used. We tried dropping this drug before, twice, Janelle condition got worst. So Janelle had been on this drug 3 years. Thank God, till yesterday night we have completely dropped nitrozepem. First 2 step down was ok.. The third step down, Janelle started with startle in her sleep and waking up at 3am every night. one sister from healing room told me to read her pslam 91, and we did. the startle and waking up at 3am goes off after a week. Praise the Lord. Hus and helper asked me to hold my horses, and continue to monitor. Monitored for a month and plus, and I feel that God has healed Janelle, she no longer need these drug. And yesterday night, I took the next step down and completely drop nitrozepem.

She is still having one more drug and will be dropping it real soon.

3 months, with stepping down of drugs, janelle is not having any episode.. God had healed Janelle. Praise the Lord.

3 months, there are many improvements in her. She started to call 姨姨，舅舅，奶奶, 姐姐，kaka，daddy except mummy. She started to take instruction, she started to be able to sit down and wait patiently, she started to imitated our words, she started to ask me who? What's that? She started to recognize words (her name) and colour (blue). And lots more to come..

This is how great our Lord..
Hareluya, all glory to God..

Fine motor skill

Teaching Janelle how to use her fingers to tear newspapers, a way to train her fine motor skill.




And this is what I got after ah hour.




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Janelle's little boyfriend

Janelle has one little boyfriend from church who they can share one iPhone watching YouTube.


Another little boyfriend to walk her out after school everyday.






Oh dear, 长大还得了。

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Our baptism on 28 Oct 2012

6 months after we accepted Christ as our Lord and savior. We experienced his awesome grace and faithfulness upon this little household. He healed Janelle's Epilepsy, healed my broken heart and He had let me know that I'm no longer alone, He shined light and brought hus out of darkness. We want more and more of Him and to fulfill His command, we're to be baptized following our decision to accept Him into our lives.




















I'm so glad that my mil, A, B and C & V came to be our personal videographer, photographer and nanny when we are so busy. It was such a beautiful ceremony and we're so thankful for having them witnessed one of our important milestone.

Shared a little testimony of how God plan for this little household. After the service, there is a pastor from sze chuan came up to me and calling me 英雄妈妈。I was so shocked and of cos 不敢当。She prayed for us and encouraging me with lots of 加油。simple encouragement and appreciation message always made me feel good, cos this had let me know that what I had done for janelle is the right thing.

And I give all glory to God.

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It's a tough week and it will be blessed

Started with Janelle down flu and cough, disturbing her in the middle if night. She woke up at 4am the day before, then 3am yesterday and 2am this morning. All her nap time was disturbed. :( not to mention, at work, I'm stepping in to back up my lead, so I'm now dual role which means workload x2.

Yesterday night thanks God that her cough was better but she still woke up in the middle of night doesn't know what happened to her. When I was patting her, I prayed to God. Suddenly I had a vision that this morning 2am disturbed is due to the drop of medication. Was too tired, didn't really went to think of anything. This morning when sitting down hus for breakfast, recalled that doctor even mention that nitrozepem should only be used for short term and this drug can cause addiction. So I guess the night disturb and the stunned she had these few days is due to the drop of nitrozepem. I prayed that God give me the strength to breeze this through.

Yes, last month both hus and I got a vision that we can drop the medication. So we did. A quarter tablet a every 2 to 3 weeks. Praise Lord, Janelle is healed and she had been seizure-free since 2 months plus ago.


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Learning 123

She can count 1 to 10 now. Took out my iPhone wanted to rec it down :

She lost her focus and keep looking at herself on iphone when I'm recording, by the count of 10, she took over my iPhone, pointed to herself and ask me "who?"
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Newbornssss

This month, I carried 4 newborn.. Oh God, they are so cute..
Baby Zyan (my nephew) - 15 Sept 2012




Baby Azel ( BFF Joyce's #3) - 17 Sept 2012




Baby Benson (colleague RongMei's #1) - 23 Sept 2012




Baby Eason (Ms Phoon's nephew #3) - 18th Oct 2012




And they are all boys.. Fulfilled my dream of having a boy as #2. Lol :) Ok, I had enough of newborn..

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Winning at Home

Today Pastor B message had once again touches that piece of darkness door in me. It's about Family Love. He shared abt his goal of Family Love, is to let the family feel Love, Acceptance and forgiveness. I asked myself, Love, i have done it well to my families, be it this little family or my maternity family or even in laws. I did whatever i can. As for Acceptance, frankly specking, I'm still learning how to embrace their fault and forgive. Give me some time, I will pray for it to be done.

He ends his message with a question? "If time can reserve, would you still choose he/she be your another half?" I have my answer and God knew it. I pray "Let Your kingdom comes, let Your will be done".

My simple take away for today :) When 2 become 1, they become one. There is no which one.

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Silly accident

Yesterday rushing to fetch Janelle to rainbow, took some documents and when slog into my bag, I cut my eye corneal. :(

I'm ok. Just that my eyes are now very sensitive to light. Can't watch TV, laptop and not even mobile phone. When too glaze, my tears will become water tap with non stop tearing. And with very irritated right eye, it seems that something is inside.. Argh.

Doctor says it should recover within 48 hrs, if dont, then I need to go to eye specialist.





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Hmmm

When I told my hus that this is my peak period for readiness at work, and I have to stand in as acting lead for these 4 months.. Wanted his support for my working hours, instead of getting his support.. He asked me to quit my job because of my stress.. Wtf.. When I told him janelle and household expenses and abt our dream, he shut up.

男人。


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sister's love

The first time witnessed my Janelle followed SJ everywhere.. Played, laughed, sing song, eat and drink together, with janelle showing her interest and her intention. both of them even hide at the stairs sharing twisters.












I give all Glory to God...

Yesterday my baby sis and SIL very cute.. When I'm playing with baby zyan, both of them ganged together trying to persuade me for #2. Sis even best, she suggested that we try baby at the time and we can pregnant during the period. Lol. Both of them forget that they have in law or mummy to take care of the baby and I'm alone furthermore who alike single parent where husband need to travel alot. Having #2 isn't equal no sleep, no life for myself... I'm tired.

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中秋节快乐

Wishing all happy mooncake festival.




This year homemade mooncake




Will try harder next year

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Life is so short.. Never knows what's going to happen tmr..

When driving home after V memorial service, this question pop into me: "If God to take me home now, are you ready? "

I'm not, i will be very worried for hus and janelle. I'm the only one who keep track of janelle from her seizure log, medicine, hospital/treatment/therapist appointments, school times, fees, maid etc etc.. No one in our family can take care of janelle for long term, not even hus. Even milk powder and diapers, my hus and maid can also get them wrong. And I have so much things in mind that I want to do.. Still waiting for janelle to be ready, like traveling to jp, etc etc.

And what if God wants to take he/she home instead.. I think I will be regret for not spending more time with them..

Guess need to change abit, treasure more of family and friendship time. If cant meet up that often, msg and show your concern will also make our life different. Isn't it? Be more thoughtful for those I care.

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what'sapp cant show the contact name on ios6

After i updated my iphone os to ios6, my what'sapp cant show the contact name. Did a search and found a solution which it's works for me:


Solution:
Go to "Settings" -> "Privacy" -> "Contacts" -> "ON" for Whatsapp.



once restart the what'sapp, the contacts will be there.. 

Service Mind Set

A couple of take away from the mentioned course I attended this morning.

1. Generally, bad customer service experiences are not caused by product or service-related issues. They happen because the representative does not treat the customer with respect.

2. “Golden Rule” says, people do not want to be treated the way you want to be treated. They want to be treated the way they want to be treated.   

3. Facts: Customers are not an interruption of our work. We are not doing them a favor by serving them. We are not the only game in town. The second we make it hard for them to do business with us, they will leave.


Tips:

• Take care of a customer’s product or service issues and their personal needs without being asked to do so
• Volunteer to take the extra step even when you do not have to
• Treat their problems or issues with the same urgency as if they were your own 
• Determine the personal needs of the customer and then satisfy those needs
• Listen with interest and ask questions to find out what is important
• Show respect and professionalism

My Janelle is improving

Praise the Lord, my janelle is improving.

She can take off her shoes and socks herself




She started to play and involved in the game




She started enjoys art, still remembered last year we had a hard time for her to engaged in arts. One person to hold her hand, one person to hold on the items, preventing her mouth the print/glue or smack everything to the floor. But now, she is independent. Glory to God.



I know all these activities look so simple for a normal child, but for a special needs child these are great deal and it takes lots of effort to happen.

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Is giving up a choice?

If give up is a choice, I would like to give up.. I know we cant turn the time back and we don't have a choice. But i know we has a choice to be in happiness by fixing our eyes on Jesus as our goal of faith race and endure all kinds of hardships until we finish the race. May God bless us to run the faith race with perseverance.


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Rainbow Centre's 20th Anniversary Walkathon/Carnival

Last Saturday, We joined PM Lee for a 2km walk in Yishun. The event was part of the Rainbow Centre's 20th anniversary celebrations held at its Yishun Park campus, which also included a fund-raising carnival that was open to the public. This had marked our first walkathon as a family. Janelle walked for about 1km, the rest of the journey was carried by daddy and helper. :)

























 

Being a mom is so tough.. Have to forgo beauty sleep to take care of her and keep her accompanied when she woke up in the middle of night.

Being a stay at home + full time work mom is even tougher. Have to nanny her, keep her accompanied, teach her and multitasking...

Being a wife of him is the toughest. For me taking a break or holidays will come with lots of voices and unhappiness on who to take care of Janelle. Before I step out of this house, I have to make sure there is enough milk, pampers, breakfast, lunch and snack. Also who to take care of janelle, it has to be maid + someone, leaving maid alone to take care of janelle is not an option from him.

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RIP, Veny

Yesterday evening when i was about to knock off, received a call from A and saw the facebook message XJ left, my tears just flowed down uncontrollable. RIP, Veny.

Less than a month ago, received message from J asking for prayers for V who was admitted to Germany hospital during their holiday there. We had been praying very hard for V, and her condition had been up and down. We had been updated via what'sapp on her condition, from the message, we know that XJ is just putting on strong font and his messages had been very positive, never give up and keep asking for prayers. But V still decided to left us yesterday noon time leaving behind her children (aged 4 and 1) and XJ.

Couple years ago XJ shared with me how much he love V, how smart V, how lucky he was to found her. A year ago in bkk, he shared with me how great V was giving him 2 best gifts in the world, and how V  supported him for his frequent travelling. :(

Asking XJ not to be too upset is not something easy to do. I pray that may time can wash and lighten his pain, and him to be stay strong for his children.

Another bundle of Joy

Visited Joyce and her #3 arrived 17 Sept 2012 weighting 4170g.



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Welcome our bundle of joy

Master Zyan, arrived on 15 Sept 2012. Weight: 2.795.













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