Last sunday, my helper give me another big headache which completely destroy every single trust me to her. in the past, no matter what she did, she doesnt hurt Janelle so i choose to close one eye. But this incident, i no longer can close one eye....
Before hus fly off, he asked me to accompany him to seng siong to get some instant noodle.. we leave the house, just 2 of us, leaving helper and janelle sleeping at home. On our half way to SS, we returned home as hus asked me to go home and change my short. Once the lift reached 11, to my horror, the main gate is opened... i rushed in to check and Janelle while hus looked around the house for helper. Janelle was awake and sitting on her bed crying, and there is no sign of helper in the house... i picked up janelle and wanted to bring janelle to leave the house, with me "Go Go Go" and hus keep asking me "where's the maid, where's the maid"... she returned home.. the first thing happened was "mom, where you go, i went downstairs to find me"... and next was a good scold from me and janelle cried even louder. this time, helper quickly take over janelle and clam her down, put her back to bed... hus and i leave the house again, as we need to have a talk on what's happened and how to handle her... on the way, my mind is not clear, the more i think the more worry i have.. so we make it a very quick one.. pick and go.
I cannot controlled myself, once i see her i continued my scolding and asked what if Janelle walked out the house took a lift ?? What if janelle fall?? what if janelle has fit?? noone around?? the only thing i remembered was "I had enough of your nonsense, one more time and you go home". after my scolding, i sat on the sofa feeling very angry and worried... then hus added on and come out with all sorts of rules.. like no more house keys with her, no more going out for her, no more bringing janelle downstairs, no more going seng siong buy papers or things... and now i have to mirco-manage her.
i'm already so busy and stress up, and she do this to me... i have not have any good night rest these few night, feeling very upset and stressed.. Yesterday night, with hus usual never think of the process, never give the thoughts of his wife and he says says "let's send her home... " which really break me down and counter fire "who going to take care of janelle?? Your mom?? my mom?? or You? have you ever thought if i can managed it.. why you so selfish, last 2 times you sent maid back, i have worked like shit to take care of everything and you have never in sinagpore.. you are not in the position to says this. on and on and on... ".. he went complete slient.